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Maroon 5 - Never Gonna Leave This Bed

2011-03-21T20:46:00.000+08:00

2011-03-21T20:32:00.001+08:00

"I'd rather learn from one bird how to sing than to teach ten thousand stars how not to dance."

E.E. Cummings

2011-03-21T19:36:00.004+08:00

next time, you feel.. itchy to cook. you know? to make something from scratch. why don't you try making mushroom soup? it sounds simple enough but really, who can deny it is one of the ultimate comfort foods? so here's a recipe. copy it down and cook away! and have fun while you are at it! :D

Ingredients:

• olive oil
• 600g mixed fresh wild mushrooms (chanterelles, girolles, trompettes de mort, shitake, oyster), cleaned and sliced
• 2 cloves of garlic, peeled and finely sliced
• 1 red onion, peeled and finely chopped• a knob of butter
• thyme
• salt and freshly ground black pepper
• 1 litre chicken or vegetable stock
• a handful of fresh flat-leaf parsley, leaves picked and roughly chopped
• 2 tablespoons mascarpone cheese
• 1 lemon

Place the porcini in a small dish, add boiling water just to cover, and leave to soak. G

et a large casserole-type pan nice and hot, then add a good couple of lugs of olive oil and your fresh mushrooms. Stir around very quickly for a minute, then add your garlic, onion, butter and thyme and a small amount of seasoning. After about a minute you'll probably notice moisture cooking out of the mushrooms and at this point add half of your porcini, chopped up, and the rest left whole. Strain the soaking liquid to remove any grit, and add it to the pan. Carry on cooking for about 20 minutes until most of the moisture disappears.
Season to taste, and add your stock. Bring to the boil and simmer for around 20 minutes. I usually remove half the soup from the pan and whiz it up to a purée at this point, then pour it back in, adding the parsley and mascarpone, and seasoning carefully to taste.

You can serve this soup as you like, but there are a few things to remember when finishing it off. Mix together a pinch of salt and pepper with the zest of one lemon and the juice of half of it, then spoon a little of this into the middle of the soup. When you go to eat it, stir it in and it gives a wonderful flavour. Other things you can consider are little slices of grilled crostini put into the bottom of the bowls before the soup is poured over. Or you could even quickly fry some nice-looking mushrooms – like giro

lles, chanterelles or oysters – and sprinkle these on top of the soup.

i got this recipe off Jamie Oliver's page. He makes everything look good.

2011-03-21T19:34:00.000+08:00

"I don't want to lose you but I don't want to use you just to have someone by my side."
~ Patty Smyth

2011-03-12T22:01:00.001+08:00

i am finding my way back to how we used to be, be patient with me.

2011-03-12T00:28:00.003+08:00

today, wen and i decided to go jogging and then play squash. however, we were NOT able to do that because it started to rain. HEAVILY. so, we decided to get KFC. which we did, and after buying what we needed.. we put the food aside and played in the rain. it was awesome. getting drenched in ice cold water with your best friend while she is giggling like she's crazy. once we bathed and got dried off, we watched sex and the city 2 while eating. then, we put on face masks, it was wen's first time! she was a mask virgin! LOL. anyway, she took pictures of us, pictures which i will never ever ever post on the internet and i gave wen a manicure.. because i am awesome that way. then, we watched the devil wears prada - one of my favourites.

2011-03-12T00:14:00.003+08:00

M&M's.

i have been spending loads of time with her lately and that has actually made a happier person, regardless of everything that has happened. i like spending time with her. she's so carefree and is always laughing, even if it's about the most ridiculous thing. it is like being with a kid, and i mean that in the

nicest way possible. we've come so far in the past 2 being best friends, and i have learned so much about her and vice versa. i feel comfortable with her and i hope she feels just as comfortable with me.

so, tuesday we went on a rapid adventure together to first avenue. it was our first time travelling so far on rapid, and to a place we have never gone to. the bus stop was hot and the only thing that kept me from going insane was ching wen screaming about how cold it was.. and how it made her sweat. we went to Dome to meet our former manager, Jackson. he was really nice as to give us a discount! wen, as usual, ordered the chicken pie and a banana milkshake. i ordered the beef lasagne and the fluffy koala. if you ever visit Dome, do order the fluffy koala - you will NOT regret it :)

but ohmygosh, the best part is the cinema! you can't imagine how cool it is! the seats were sofa beds. yes. SOFABEDS. you could watch a movie on a BIGASS screen while lying down. i also bought a really pretty pair of heels! :D then, we bought a pair of earrings and each took one side. we took rapid home, and got wet in the rain.. :B

the apple to my pie

2011-03-10T23:24:00.001+08:00

because i love you, i can't not talk to you.

Plain White T's - Rhythm Of Love

2011-03-09T22:13:00.000+08:00

2011-03-09T22:10:00.001+08:00

"If you love somebody, let them go, if they come back - they were always yours. If they don't - they never were"

dome.

2011-03-07T00:08:00.002+08:00

today was my last day at Dome, and i have to say i was pretty sad to leave.

i remember the first week when i started work.

my feet hurt like crazy and i was always so damn tired, and i felt really.. lonely.

things changed, though. i mean, my feet don't hurt anymore.. even after 13 hours of standing. and, i don't feel as tired as i used to.

and the best part of working was, i don't feel lonely at work. going to work actually feels like going to a second home. i have met so many people there that make me smile and forget about the outside world for a just a little while. i have even met and got to know some of the customers, and even they make me happy.

i had the best manager anybody could ever ask for, because not only is he sweet, he never yelled or said anything mean to hurt people's feelings. the restaurant could be buzzing with people, and he walks around smiling and asking you if you are okay. i mean, i have made alot of mistakes... he never once scolded me for it. he is always so calm, and collected. and my supervisor, the barista, the chefs and waitresses. i will miss them all.

i am really glad i took the job in Dome, it made a difference in my life.

now, closing the chapter of Dome.. i have to start worrying about college. damn.

decisions, decisions, decisions

2011-03-04T22:29:00.002+08:00

The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn. ~David Russell

choices and decisions.

why is it so easy to want so many things but not be able to make a decision when all your options are staring you in the face?

indecisiveness, is like a security blanket.. because if you don't make a choice, then you won't have to deal with the consequences of your actions. i for one find it hard to make up my mind. it could be something simple, like what cake to pick, which nail polish colour to get or something serious like jobs and education.

maybe it's because we're all spoilt with choices and options. each option always looks so.. appealing. it's like choosing between chicken soup and fried chicken. they're different, but at the end of the day.. they're chicken. so, i like soup today.. what if i don't like it tomorrow? tomorrow is too late. i suppose that's why we are all so afraid to make a choice, why we find it so hard. it's not that we are unsure of what we want. deep down, somewhere at the corner of your heart.. you know what you want.

somehow, we are all just too damn afraid to stand up and admit what we want. we are afraid of the consequences it might bring, afraid of making the wrong decision which we will regret tomorrow. after all, we are only human. doubt is in our every single heartbeat and someone who tells you otherwise is an idiot, or just in denial.

i wish i had a mirror that would show me the future every time i make up my mind about something.. then i would know if i am making the right move. but, if life were that easy.. people wouldn't be getting into untimely freak accidents, lovers wouldn't be getting their heart broken, you wouldn't have chosen soup.

though, there is always a silver lining, right? the person in that freak accident would learn to appreciate life and his or her loves ones. people with broken hearts will move on and find someone else that would not break their heart and you.. would have made a healthier choice by choosing soup and have saved yourself a trip to the gym.

but if you do find that magic mirror, let me know, will you? i'm willing to sell of my hair for it :)

ho's over bro's?

2011-03-04T20:21:00.002+08:00

friends over boys?

now, most people would automatically say friends.. because we are all programmed to choose the option that makes us seem like a nice person. maybe some of you really mean it, you would pick your friends. or, you could be mentally saying boys instead ;)

i think it would depend on the situation, really.

honestly, some friends are just too selfish to care about your feelings, so.. how do you pick? you fancy a guy, and she goes behind your back and fancies him, too. oh, you're thinking, what a bitch.. but to be honest, we've probably all done it, too. but it takes a really selfish someone to do something about it. you know? to make a move, to.. hurt your friend. i guess if you are in that situation. dump them both. she's not worth your time, and he's not worth the heartache.

second situation is if you both like the guy, equally, and it was out in the open from the start. how do one of you choose who gets the guy? it would help to talk to your friend and decide.. but i guess, it all boils down to who the guy likes. heck, screw him. you can both find two different guys. it saves a whole lot of tears because getting over someone is way more fun if you're doing it with someone :)

third situation, you like the guy first, and your friend ends up liking him. and he likes her, too. okay, this is hard.. especially if your friend is honest with you about it and wants nothing more than to not hurt you. i don't know. i guess, if that friend didn't want to hurt you.. she would have done something to stop liking him. i mean, things don't happen overnight. ultimately, nothing can be done on your part, except to forgive and move on. yeah, it hurts and things might feel weird for a while.. but if the friendship is strong, it'll all be okay in the end.

my friends always say the same thing to me, whenever the guy i fancy has a crush on someone else. he doesn't know how lucky he is. it might be something they say just to make me feel better.. but it works like a charm, so why not revel in the compliment until you feel better, right? ;)

hats

2011-03-01T00:10:00.002+08:00

school's over, and i have been working. i have met a bunch of people, some of whom have made a mark in my life and some of whom i wish i had never met.

i have tried new things and felt new feelings and discovered things about myself that i didn't even knew were in existence. these past two months, alot of things have happened to that made me realise.. i don't know who i am, but i am glad. i am glad i don't know who i am or what i want, but i am getting there. slowly. with one experience at a time. i now know the kind of people i want to keep in my life and the ones i feel are not worth keeping. a friend once told me that i deserve the best and that i should demand for nothing less than i deserve and it seemed.. so, do-able. so easy to go through with.

it's not easy, to demand for what you deserve. you actually have to fight through every voice in your head that tells you to not take a risk and just settle with what you have. but.. if you love yourself enough, why settle for something less than what you deserve? so this is me, learning to not settle.

i have no idea why i do the things i do, most of the time.. but it makes me happy. so, my new year's resolution this year, is to be happy. to do what makes me happy and to surround myself with people who make me happy. because, i deserve to.

a box of sweets.

2010-06-07T22:45:00.005+08:00

the other day in physics class, my teacher, mr.koay brought up a really interesting idea. he was reading a book on philosophy ideas, and well, consider it inspiration for this post.

so, he said, if there were two options and you had a choice, which would you pick?

would you want to be happy forever? to let your brain strapped to a machine, and fill you with happy images. weddings, children, the perfect career, a husband to die for.. you get the picture. you wouldn't know that you're strapped to a machine, because you'd be in this virtual world living this perfect life.

or would live your life with failure and much expected sadness?

i'd pick the latter. but then again, ask me when i'm depressed and suicidal ;D

there really is no right or wrong answer. i suppose most people would choose the second option because they see to it as the 'right' answer, the right choice that helps you grow as a person. maybe i've eaten up into the whole charade, maybe i haven't.

i would pick the latter, because.. if i did not feel sad, i wouldn't know when i was feeling happy. imagine being so happy all the time that you start forgetting how to appreciate being happy, and forgetting to cherish those little pictures in your head that make you smile. it would be like forgetting to be happy when your mummy tells you she loves you, or when a lover kisses you. perhaps even running 2km without stopping.

if i didn't know what it feels like to fail, to hit bottom and know that the only way out.. is up, then i would never learn to work hard. i wouldn't know what success feels like if i've been having it all my life, spoon fed to me. the feeling of accomplishing something, that feeling that makes your insides warm and cheek muscles itch.. i wouldn't ever feel that.

feeling sad, believe it or not is a good thing. if you didn't feel sad, then you would not know how heartaching it is and you would never try to make yourself happy. when you're sad, and you know why, you will never make the same mistake again and cause yourself the pain that you once felt. like the saying, once bitten, twice shy.. yeah, i don't really know how many people it applies to :p

what i'm trying to say is, i would pick a life that has an acceptable balance of good & bad. i'd like my yin & yang, macaroni & cheese, maybe even nasi & lemak.

choosing the former would make things a hell lot easier, but then again, what's life without a little drama? it'll be like eating plain oats ;)

soul vacation.

2010-06-07T22:39:00.004+08:00

like pen on paper,

peanut butter and jam,

two hemispheres one circle,

red and blue, colours purple,

a hue, solid and bewitching,

whispered thoughts and secret smiles,

caressing winds and warm sunshine,

butterflies and moths,

my clumpsy heart jumping a mile,

thudding against me,

waiting for your attention,

a game of hide and seek,

i hid and you found me.

words of a whisper.

2010-06-07T22:16:00.003+08:00

15 secrets i'd never tell you.

1. i have atleast 5 people in my life who come before you.

2. i might not share the last piece of cheesecake with you.

3. i flirt, and i don't feel bad about it.

4. i wonder how long we'd last.

5. i will make more mistakes than you can imagine.

6. i am not ready for commitment, but i am trying..

7. i am still very single-minded.

8. i don't like making you sad, it's make my heart feel heavy.

9. i have feelings like a pendulum, there's a maximum and a minimum.

10. i am scared of what will happen if this ends.

11. i like it when we talk less.

12. i relish the fact i get jealous when people show interest in you.

13. i like it when you smile.

14. i don't know why i like you..

15. just that i do.

-skittles.

smarties.

2010-03-24T15:09:00.002+08:00

*blows off dust that has settled on keyboard*

*sneezes*

*cracks fingers and begins to type*

yellow :D

long, i've been gone. i was looking for inspiration.

i even looked under rocks and my mum's flower pots.

i found inspiration while looking at raindrops on my father's car window.

i wanted to see which one would.. win.

here it is, my latest 5 step life improvement post.

i hope it makes you laugh.

5 way to do well during exams!

oh yes, follow my fool-proof methods and be on your way to achieving the results you've only every dreamed of!

no longer will you want to burn your paper and use the ashes to draw dirty signs on your teacher's house walls :'D

step 1 : cut your toenails the day before exams, file them, and paint them red.

step 2 : wash your hair with a blue coloured shampoo.

step 3 : try to break into the exam room a week before the exams.

step 4 : during the exam, shout "look over there!", and when the girl beside you averts her attention, copy her answer.

step 5 : pray very hard that you develop mind reading skills.

or.. you could just STUDY.

and no, i do not mean the day before exams where you rush to fit everything inside your head.

and if the steps above did not help you in any way, atleast you'll have pretty toenails and nice smelling hair.

lots of love.

suffocated.

2010-03-09T16:22:00.002+08:00

the throat tightening feeling that encloses me in a blur.

your words drown me in a pool of lust, reluctance and disarray.

the lush feeling of comfort and security you give, binds me.

a cloud of clarity ushers, but the silvery voice of doubt whispers.

the words spoken leave me in a tangled mess of exasperation.

clawing my way out, through a never ending tunnel.

i pull of the clutching hand of credence and sanguinity.

freefalling at the speed of sound.

i don't need anyone to catch me, i've already landed on my own two feet.

yo, homeey :D

2010-03-04T16:10:00.002+08:00

i will not eat cauliflower, bananas, and honeydews.

because i'm gangsta, yoo.

baby carrots.

2010-03-03T21:16:00.002+08:00

i hate it when people come, asking you for your honest opinion, and they can't handle it when you give it to them. if you can't handle someone telling you the truth, don't ask! save yourself the heartache and don't waste the other person's time or spoil their mood. but really, you and i both know that you knew the truth all along. deep inside, you knew the truth. except, you just can't face the fact that someone else besides you knows the truth, and they are willing to tell you. i think respect is earned, it doesn't come free like those pamphlets you get when you're in a shopping mall and these salespeople give them to you. i would respect you, if you respected me. but you don't, so why should i?

the best chocolate, ever.

2010-02-24T14:32:00.001+08:00

22 11 10.

no, it is not the combination to my secret vault that's in my house.

woops, now it's not so much of a secret anymore.

however, it is..

THE DAY I GET A MYOCARDIAL INFARCTION.

due to tremendous amounts of:

stress.

anxiety.

panic.

fear.

i will experience an increase in the adrenaline level in my blood and i will sweat away 1kg per minute.

my tummy will have dead butterflies in it.

i will have a gun in my hand.

[to shoot the exam paper]

SPM 2010.

i need to plan an escape to Canada. soon.

all i need.

2010-02-13T23:50:00.003+08:00

through the thick, overwhelming fog. the dense air that surrounds me, the air that crawls on my skin like caterpillars and makes it hard for me to breathe. the thick shield that obscures my vision and blurs my mind..

your voice cuts through like glass.

"time to let go."

dates.

2010-02-12T20:05:00.003+08:00

ah, in honour of valentine's day, i will write a post about.. valentines day.

or rather, dates.

now, i'm sure most of you who have a significant other would like to them on a date or if you have a crush, you'd like to take him/her on a date.

well, let's start off with things you should NOT do on a date.

1) do not steal her fork to comb your hair with it.

2) do not chew so loud the people from the next building can hear you.

3) do not smell like dirty socks that's been left under your bed for 3 weeks.

4) do not sing I Wanna Make Love Right Now by Akon.

5) do not tell stories about your rock collection.

6) do not comment on how much the other person eats, even if it's enough to feed a third world country.

7) do not catch a frog.

8) do not scream Kuchibaba! or Habbibaba!

9) do not jump into a river and howl like a wolf.

10) do not throw fruits at your date.

now, the things you SHOULD do on a date.

1) brush your teeth.

2) floss.

3) rinse.

4) talk about how lousy American Idol is.

5) start singing Smile by Uncle Kracker and spin around in circles like a record.

6) just ignore all my suggestions and have fun.

i hope these steps have been of much help.

if not, please, don't hesitate to give me a ring at 012-4567890.

or email me at, iamalovegoddess@yeahright.com :D

things to do in a library.

2010-02-08T18:42:00.003+08:00

when you walk into a library, it's always quiet.

everybody has their head bowed and they are either scribbling away or reading.

the librarian always looks at you with a warning glance.

it's so quiet that you can hear the clock ticking.

tick, tock, tick.. tock.

here are 5 ways to brighten up your library, today!

1) you can untie your shoelaces when nobody is looking. point to your shoes and scream.. MY SHOELACES ARE UNTIED and let out a big gasp, all the while pointing at your shoe.

2) flirt with the librarian, regardless of your sexual orientation.

3) stand on your chair and SHOUT OUT your favourite ice cream flavour.

4) borrow a book, return it, and borrow it again. repeat until librarian screams at you.

5) bring a radio into library and dance to Haven't Met You Yet by Michael Buble.

please, do try these 5 ways at your nearest library!

if the above fails at getting the attention of everyone in the library.. you're doing it wrong.

so, come on! get up off your chair and lead the new generation of library people!

results may vary.

for more info, please email, iamjobless@workless.com :D

cocoon.

2010-01-28T15:35:00.003+08:00

i don't know where i'm headed this post, really.

except i need to write down how i feel about telling someone how i feel.

this morning, i walked into the school canteen and i searched for her familiar face.

she grinned at me as i walked up to her, and i told her i needed to talk to her.

i wasn't quite certain as to what i was going to say to her, all i knew was.. i needed to talk.

talk to to someone who i wasn't accustomed to pouring my heart out to.

someone who didn't know what my next word was going to be, someone who doesn't know me well enough to understand me.. so i had the chance to explain my feelings in detail.

i needed to explain things in detail because my brain is as tangled up as knot of thread.

clarity. oh, how i was wishing to relish the sweet taste of you on my tongue.

i wanted you to clear my vision and be the wind that blew the fog away.

but searching for clarity is like looking for a diamond amongst broken glass.

in this detail explanation i gave her, maybe it didn't give me my diamond, but i got a crystal as compensation. and maybe, that isn't so bad as having a piece of coal.

i told her how i felt, about things. how i had issues and how messed up i feel. i whined for about 25 minutes, while walking and making big hand gestures to emphasise the depth of the situation.

i told her things i found weird to tell the people closest to me.. and i giggled a whole lot while doing this. the entire time i was talking, i didn't feel guilty or bad that i was taking up so much of her time.. it felt good. almost like biting into a chocolate bar. she was willing to listen to me, and my issues.. made her laugh out loud more than i could count. i suppose my dramaticness made her crack up, or maybe it was the web i was getting myself into.

and when i was done, i looked at her and asked.. do you know how i feel? she simply said, yes. that simple word was sufficient enough to lift this huge weight off my heart. it was so hard to explain, but there's something about telling someone you don't usually tell how you feel.. how you feel. she probably thinks i'm insane, and maybe a little prone to going around being fascinated by a whole lot of people at once. it doesn't matter to me, really. it feels liberating.

so, thank you. for listening to me.

much love.

raspberry chocolates.

2010-01-21T16:26:00.002+08:00

i got off rapid, looked to my left, estimating the distance of the nearest car, and seeing if i should cross. the air was thick with smoke, soot and moisture. the sun was beating down on everything, in the most pleasant way. the tree was giving me this cool shade. i stepped out of this little shelter, and out into the open, crossing the road.. with a fairly steady pace. i got onto the road divider, and saw something that made me question my life as it is.

a cat was dead.. it had his mouth open and it's limbs curled around itself. i felt my heart shrink into a tight knot. i wanted to cry, to mourn for this cat.. because somebody had to! the poor creature was dead, on the side of the road, and everybody was whirring past, moving on with their lives.

and so, on this particular hot day, i wondered if i would end up like that cat. please, erase the image of me turning into a four legged creature with fur in your head. that's not quite what i meant, what i'm trying to say is, if i died tomorrow, or in 5 years.. would i be alone? would someone care? i don't know if it seems conceited for me to say this, but i know people would care. but what if in 5 years time, i turn into this foul tempered, bad-mouthing bitch. would my friends still come for the old times sake? would they miss me? would your friends, miss you?

my mother, i am certain will be there.. and my immediate family. they will always be there for me, my pillar of strength. but i want people i don't know so well to remember me. because that cat reminded me of how indefinite and uncertain life is. that one day, you can be at your best, and at your worst the very next day. i want to have made a difference in people's lives. it doesn't have to be many people. even 2 or 3 would be sufficient.

it doesn't matter to me how i made an impact in theirs, and it doesn't matter how big. they could be having a horrible day, and me smiling at them.. it made a difference, well, that is just perfect for me. i want those people to be at my funeral, too. i don't want to be remembered as how many a's i scored for exams, or how many clubs i was in. i don't want to be remembered for how fast i could run, or how my essays were long.

i want to be remembered for how much i smiled, and how funnily lame i am. i want to be remembered because i was a good friend and an even better best friend. i want to be remembered because i made an impact in your life in this small way, that you can't describe..

so, from today onwards, i'm going to bribe everybody with chocolate so they'll remember me.

*grins*

much love.

leather cords.

2010-01-16T23:01:00.002+08:00

my sister.

when i was 4 years old, and my mum was telling me it was time to go to the hospital, i was beyond excited! i ran to my dad and told him he needs to take my mummy to the hospital. it was 1 in the morning and i wasn't even yawning.

she came, the little girl. she was small, had weird spiky hair and couldn't open her eyes. her skin was red and fair.. and nobody would let me hold her. i was pretty disappointed, you could say. everybody was holding her and fussing over her, and i couldn't see my little sister!

i guess i did get pretty jealous about all the attention she was getting. my parents would be amused at the slightest bit of movement she made, and i felt.. ignored. i really didn't have to feel that way, because my parents obviously still loved me. but try telling that to a 4 year old with a new baby sister.

when she turned 4, i couldn't stand the girl. she was what i would call annoying. we didn't see eye to eye on anything. we would argue about which tv channels to watch, and what to buy when we went grocery shopping. i honestly wished i had a different sister, i wished i had a sister whom understood me and didn't change the tv channels!

my sister was 5 years old, and she was this chubby little kid. we were taking a walk in my grandmothers kampung, and she was holding my hand and i was feeding her rice crispies. this goat, saw the food in my hand and chased us both. my sister couldn't run, and so i carried her. she was really heavy, and we both fell down and i was screaming my lungs out because the goat was still running after us..

i love my sister.

over the years, we stopped fighting so much. she learned to keep my secrets, and i started keeping hers. we would whisper to each other snarky comments when we were at a boring wedding and no one else is there to entertain us. she started laughing at my stupid jokes, and i started to treat her more like a friend than a sister.

she's not 4 years old anymore. she doesn't need me to feed her rice crispies, or hold her hand when she's walking. she doesn't need me to reach up and get her things that are too high for her to reach; she's the same height as me, now. sueveena doesn't need me to help her draw things for school or teach her how to write words. she doesn't need me to cook her lunch or snacks.

now, she holds my hand because she wants to. she needs me to teach her maths and help her draw history mind maps. she cooks lunch for me. she tells me her stupid jokes. sueveena tells me about her feelings. she shares her secrets with me and she comes to me for boy advice. my little baby sister is no longer telling me i'm vain for taking pictures of myself and staring at the mirror; she is doing that.

we still fight. over which channel we want to watch, and who's turn it is to throw out the garbage bag. who gets the bigger half of the study table and who gets to use the computer. she nags at me when i don't listen to her, and i whine and sulk when she chooses to listen to her friends over me.

we constantly make sure our hair looks fine, and i help her choose outfits when she's going out and vice versa. i make my parents let her have more time out with her friends and she tells me good things about myself when i'm down.

even with all these good things that come along with her being a teenager, i still sometimes find myself wishing she would be that annoying 4 year old again. i can't bear to see the girl grow up so fast.. she's ready. ready to be those foul tempered, cursing, dramatic teenagers.. but i'm not. i sound like this 78 year old grandmother, but piss off. you don't know how i feel, yo. she's still my baby, and now she's growing up so fast.. and before i know it, she's going to be telling me about her getting married and joining a book club!

i guess what i'm trying to say is, i love my sister today more than i did yesterday. and even if we're fighting and i am very much annoyed with her, she will always be the one person i can't get rid of, so i have no choice but to take what i get and turn it into something good *grins*

she will be someone i trust, someone who will stick with me through thick and thin. she knows everything there is to know about me, and yet she still loves me.

and so, i take my the wish my 4 year old self made. i would never trade my sister for any other person in the world. because i love sueveena, and without her, i guess i wouldn't be who i was today.

cannonball!

2010-01-12T14:30:00.002+08:00

life lesson #10.

bob marley was high when he said don't worry, be happy.

there are two groups of people. one who tell you to not worry, and just chill.. and the other who actually take time and listen to your problems.

have you ever told a friend about how you were feeling and he/she said, don't worry, be happy..?

consider me someone who has done that, and i always felt like punching my friend for saying that.

really, dude, do you think i want to worry? DO YOU THINK I'D RATHER BE WORRYING MY ASS OFF THAN BE HAPPY?

*grins* i am not mad.

but back to where i was.. do they really think i have some sort of mental illness? that worrying gives me high dosages of joy that chocolate can't?

i am telling you my feelings because i believe you could make me happy. telling me not to worry, is not it. because there is a reason why i am worrying, and i am telling you the reason!

don't you just feel like yelling these things at them?

everbody worries, they have to. it's a simple human emotion everybody feels.

those who claim to be happy-go-lucky, are simply put.. lame.

just because you don't worry about the significant things in life, that does not make you happy-go-lucky. it makes you ignorant.

even these so called happy-go-lucky people worry! about their hair, or glasses frame.

but even after reading this post, and you think you're happy-go-lucky.. whatever floats your boat, dude.

but then, there's this other group of people. people who take time to listen and evaluate your problem. they give you useful advice and say things that make you feel like you've found the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. i know you know what i'm talking about. when you're telling a friend how you feel, and how depressed you are and she says something that changes your life.. and you can't help but want to hug her or give her the nobel prize.

there are two groups of people. one who tell you to not worry, and just chill.. and the other who actually take time and listen to your problems.

and i, belong to the former *grins*

much love.

thisposthasnotitle,yo.

2010-01-05T14:31:00.002+08:00

life's a bitch? perhaps so *grins*

he told me that SPM is going to come even if i don't want it to, that i'd have no choice but to go through it.

so i might as well do it happily.

kudos.

selvenrazz, i miss you coming down and annoying the daylights out of me.

aqilahshafie, i get to see you today!

karinyeoh, i am on a mission.

i do not understand why everybody likes to critisize farmville! it's a damn awesome game and it sure as hell beats maple!

school is beginning to sink in, and it's not as bad as i thought it would be. the uniform isn't so bad and i like my new red bag :D

oops, i did it again.

2010-01-02T10:41:00.002+08:00

my first post for 2010, and it's my 71st post.

oh, how horrific. i've had this blog since 2008.

school is starting on monday, it's saturday.

i'll be going back to the routined lifestyle of waking up at 6am and going to sleep at 11pm.

back to the hustling of students during monday morning assembly when all i want to do is go home and nurse myself with chocolate and tv.

teachers coming into classes and all of us getting up to greet her.

back to the mundane school uniforms which i am already sick of, but still can't do anything about.

homework which will be piling up every day as i procrastinate.

exams and all that unwanted stress and competitiveness from people *groans*

my palms will sweat when i hold my pencil and i will constantly need a correction tape refill.

i will be in a panicky state trying to juggle sports practise, activities, tuition and homework.

might even cry for the first 4 months of this year as if someone kidnapped my momma.

this will be my last year in school.

old, i am.

now that i've reminded you of how horrible school is...

*grins*

much love.

happy new year?

2009-12-31T01:39:00.004+08:00

if you has asked me a month ago if i was happy about the new year, i would have looked at you as if you were insane and say, hell no.

as usual, i've changed my mind.. after lots of thinking. the thing is, i've lived this year to the fullest. i've met so many new people, and lost a few. grown up in ways i didn't think i would, and learned through my mistakes and somehow.. made them again. i have learned to express myself and to sometimes just hold my tongue. i am glad to let go of this year and feel 2010 wash over me.

this year has been an absolute roller coaster. i've been up so high, i couldn't see ground and so low that i felt like i was going to breakdown, and just not care about anything anymore.

i have gotten my heart stomped on. i have learned to deal with things on my own and to make my own decisions. this year, i realised what real friends would do just to make you happy and how they would fiercely defend you if anything went wrong. i have learned that life is unfair and sometimes, it's also a bitch. i have learned that you can't always get what you want, and that sometimes, you just have to believe everything happens for a reason. people will let you down, but it's okay to trust them again, because everybody makes mistakes. you have to work hard for someone's approval and things take time.

the beginning of this year, i wasn't sure about what would come my way. if i had known, i would have written a note to myself preventing me from doing all the things that would make me cry, or feel sad and pain. but then, what would i have learned? would i be the person i am right now? no, i wouldn't and i wouldn't have learned nuts. i would be curled up in the comfort of my bed. except, that wouldn't be fun, no? *grins*

i am glad of everything that has happened this year, the good, the bad and the in between.

i know next year i will be buried in books.. consider me an ostrich. but i am certain that even with all the studying, i am going to get myself in alot of drama and probably inflict more misery upon myself. but hey, we all know that i will never learn *winks*

SPM, come on to me because i am not afraid of you anymore. you're just another wall that i will climb. a wall that might be very high and risky to climb, but one thing's for sure.. i will get to the other side. it just depends on if i'd be injured or safe. and that, is all in my hands.

all the drama, backstabbing, heartbreaks and new crushes.. why don't you just come on along for the ride? it's going to be a long trip and i don't like being bored :)

to my friends, i would like to say.. you've gone through another year with me. i'm sure i must have pissed you off atleast 3 times, and made you laugh more than 50. i promise to try to be a better friend and be there for you guys when you need me. so, whatdya say? another year of laughs and unpredictableness from me? *grins*

to my mummy, i'd like to tell her that i love her very very much. that even when i am pissed at her, that i still love her and that she's someone i look up to and wouldn't mind being when i grow up.

my darling sister, sueveena. you will always be my baby sister, and if any boy breaks your heart, i will break his face. i love you, freak.

and next year, i am going to have resolutions.. and actually go through with them.

i will smile when i feel sad, and laugh when i'm about to cry.

i will stop texting so many people, because it takes up too much time.

i will wish significant people good morning everyday.

i will be more patient and thoughtful.

i will be more sarcastic.

i will not stop being funny and lame.

i will not be boring even if all i will be doing next year is studying.

i will never hate my hair even if it's refusing to work with me.

i will exercise more and complain less about being fat.

i will hug more trees and talk to more flowers.

i will look and smile at the sun everyday.

and i will always, always love malta.

much love.

2009-12-30T14:56:00.000+08:00

didn't you know?

you make me happy.

sunlight through my window.

2009-12-26T08:33:00.002+08:00

why do i do these things to myself?

*shoots self with a water gun*

candycanes.

2009-12-24T10:50:00.005+08:00

life lesson #9.

your opinions matter more, sometimes.

have you ever needed an opinion on something? and you go around asking all your best friends and wondering what would be the right move? which decision will not make your heart feel as if someone's squeezing it with their bare hands? i was talking to a friend, and she said.. that no decision is the wrong one. it just depends on which has more pros than cons. that changed my whole opinion.. on opinions.

i realised that whenever i ask someone for an opinion, i sort of wish they'd just tell me what to do, so when i regret whatever i've done, i wouldn't have to blame me. but.. i really should. not blame myself, no. but take responsibility of the consequences of my actions.

i may not always do the right thing, and sometimes i might do the stupidest things. things that make you want to smack me upside the head and ask me what on earth i was thinking.. i'm not going to say i wasn't thinking. i was thinking.. just not hard enough.

but in my defense, i am learning.

i am just taking everything as it comes along, scrutinizing it, and picking the option i think is best. i am going to change my mind about those options, alot. but then again, i can. i have every right to fix a wrong. don't get me wrong, okay? i love you guys for taking time to listen and give me your opinions, but.. like you guys always say, the decision is up to me.

i finally.. finally understand what the hell that even means. i used to ponder over that simple phrase, the decision is up to you. i didn't want to make the choice myself, i wanted someone else to do it for me, and that was just plain immature. they're right, they can't make the decision and they can't tell me what to do. even if they did, and i don't want to do what they're asking me to do even if it's what's good for me, from their perspective.. i wouldn't be happy.

i am still going to go around asking for opinions and what i should do.. but don't be disappointed in me if i don't do what you say. just because i don't do it, it doesn't mean i don't appreciate your help. sometimes, like dhiv always says, i've got to think about myself. and even if that seems selfish, i will.

so, most of the time, people are too darn egoistic to just admit that what they've decided is just not right and fix what they've done. but screw your ego. putting aside your ego is so worth it when that feeling of relief and calm washes over you and automatically puts this smile on your face that no one can wash away, not for a while, atleast.

well, i quote, nobody said it was easy and.. i am going back to the start.

much much love.

dhiv likes candy.

2009-12-22T14:52:00.003+08:00

i am going to write a blog post about candy.

personally, i despise candy. the weird rainbow colours, coated with that odd glossy finish.

it's highly disturbing. like, walking into a carnival and looking at a creepy looking clown smiling down at you.. almost as if to say, 'i'm watching you' *shudders*

that's how i feel when i look at candy on displays at shops. most of you probably think i'm weird for not liking candy, but i don't care. you don't go through my pain!

let's move on to how candy tastes. peculiar, is the first adjective that pops into my head at the mention of the word. you tear open a packet of candy, and pop one of those multi coloured little things into your mouth and then what..? they don't even melt in your mouth! candies are hard, plastic-y tasting and too damn sweet. it gives you tooth decay and whatever teeth disease you can think of.

and what's up with lollipops? sweets on a stick? what's the point? why don't we just go poking everything with sticks and pretend they're pure genius? tonight, i might stab some of my rice grains onto a stick and maybe add on some eggs and tomatoes. perhaps, i'd stick some ice and say that's my form of water supply forever. all they do is hurt the top part of my mouth, and make my tongue feel oddly numb.

chocolates, however are a whole different story.. book. they are worth fussing about, really. you pop a piece of chocolate into your mouth and all the flavours and scents hit you like a pang. first the smell that wafts through your throat and nose and makes you feel all warm and fuzzy. secondly, the way it melts on your tongue and this rich cocoa taste just fills your mouth and.. do i really need to go on?

so i say, screw candy and long live chocolates.

dhiv and boo, i am so sorry *grins*

closure.

2009-12-22T14:18:00.001+08:00

wihandro sembiring, i beat you at daytona.

cherylene ann bruyns, i beat you at daytona and you can drive.

i am the bomb.

i will miss you.

untitled.

2009-12-15T14:23:00.002+08:00

to not express, is to not participate.

and to not participate, is to not live.

-asha gill.

check out one republic's new song, secrets. it's awesome.

just haven't met you yet.

2009-12-14T11:21:00.000+08:00

i think i believe in love.

of shirts and nail polish.

2009-12-13T15:55:00.004+08:00

"i really don't understand why you won't buy nail polish, boo."

yesterday's queens outing wasn't awkward, to my suprise.

i expected cricket sounds, lots of awkward laughter and uncomfortable fidgeting.

*grins* okay, so i'm exaggerating just a little..

it was pretty fun, actually.

i got to eat my favourite burger in the whole universe.. none other than..

*drum rolls*

Prosperity.

and after 8 long months, i finally saw teng shin. yeah, hello to you, too, you piggyfied swimming housemaid.

he was sooooo 'shy' *grins*

and sher rynn was as tall as me even when i was wearing heels Dx

i made boo wear nail polish! *dances around in circles*

and she got her ipod shuffle which actually made the girl smile *rolls eyes*

& the shorts we saw at FOS really was pretty.

i bought doughnuts from j.co as well. i have to say this..

it was worth every sen :D

enough about yesterday, i want to talk about today!

this morning, my mum woke me up saying we were late.. and damn right we were.

i bathed as fast as i could, and put on my shirt.

i was looking for shorts and scarfing down my burger.

tied on my shoelaces, triple checked if i had my headphones on and made my way to PISA.

STARWALK :D

we started the race, and while we were walking, the sun was just beginning to rise..

and all my restlessness just sort of faded away.

it was sooo beautiful.

with that said, i was pretty much happy all throughout the race.

Chin End was 'walking' with Selven and Me.

my parents and my sister were god knows where..

i finished the race in less than 1 hour and 20 minutes. big whoop.

except, i wasn't in the competition category! Dx

lining up for Milo was horrible, and people were shoving me, and i wanted to shove my MILO up their.. well, where the sun doesn't shine.

and Sher Rynn was there.

I GOT MALTA! :D :D

It was pretty hot, the sun was practically cooking me from the inside out..

but i had fun. The Walk, lining up while people pushed, sweating under the sun, waiting in the hall during this hideously long ceremony.

& people who win lucky draws are shit lucky.

thousands have lived without love, but none without water.

fried rice and pepsi.

2009-12-10T12:43:00.002+08:00

note to self : don't trust anybody.

as much as it pains me to say this, i am never trusting anybody ever again.

i mean, you'd think that someone close to you would never do anything to hurt you.

i would totally understand if what happened was an accident, but it's really not.

you knew it would hurt me, and yet you did it.

what i told you was for you to keep and never let slip.

but you told, and you didn't even bother to be truthful about it.

if you're going to tell me secret, you might as well tell the truth.

apologizing and giving me crap defense speeches isn't going to make me change my mind.

i don't trust you, anymore. period.

personally, i don't care if you call me dramatic or think i'm overreacting.

overreacting i am not.

and i'd like to end this hideously pissed off emofied post on a happy note.

thank you, boo.

the ugly truth.

2009-11-25T09:45:00.001+08:00

goodmorning.

getupearlyandlookatthesunrise.

itwillchangeyourlife.

pinknailpolishandrednailpolishwillchangeyourlife.

considermeapersonwithachangedlife.

inowhaveanewperspective.

of rain and thunder.

2009-11-24T20:22:00.002+08:00

*grins and waves*

oh, people of planet earth.

*sings fireflies*

dang, i can't get that song out of my head.

last last saturday, i went out with oreo and berberkins :)

i went to gurney! i am excited because i hardly go there.

anyway, after gurney, wihandro followed me and berber home.

we wanted to take rapid! x)

but rapid left us.

this is the second time.

i am not happy, rapid.

it was drizzling, so we decided to wait under a tree.

giggling and talking, i wasn't aware of how in a few minutes the rain would get heavier.

it got very heavy to a point where there was thunder and i was drenched.

the tree did nothing to protect us..

you see, every now and then when you're blissfully happy and have no worries at all.

the rain falls.

it comes pouring down from above onto you.

sometimes the tree that is supposed to shelter you fails to do so, and you don't know how you're going to keep yourself from getting wet..

go under the rain and play.

if life's going to fling a bunch of lemons at you, grab them and make a damn good frigging glass of lemonade. go play under the rain, twirl and dance.

in other words, go tackle the problem. catch the bull by it's horns. jump into the water headfirst.

though, not long after i started shivering like i was going cold turkey from drug addiction or some nonsense. berber and oreo were trying to keep me warm.

you're probably saying, awwh.. they're so sweet. and you're right, they are sweet.

trying to keep me warm when they themselves are shivering.

cue the best friends.

so you've got a bunch of problems.. a whole box of lemons, you could say.

who says you're on your own? :)

another rapid finally came, and we got on it. the bus driver was laughing at us, probably because we looked like drenched mole rats. LOL.

the bus was super cold. amber sat on my lap as i sang the whole way through..

another heart calls, bubbly, best i ever had. we just sang and sang.

finally though, we got off the bus, and we went to a nasi kandar store.

i was holding hot milo while i hugged oreo.

i could feel a strange burning sensation on my arm, whaddya know?

i had hot milo pouring down my arms and oreo's shirt.

my mum picked me up, after which.

berber and i were in the car, drinking milo. huddled together.

listening to lite.fm play their oldies.

mmm, oldies and milo when it's raining cats and dogs outside is heaven.

i found it, the rainbow after the rain.

grins

2009-11-11T09:08:00.002+08:00

my favourite colour is red.

2009-11-02T16:38:00.004+08:00

life lesson#6.

letting go.

if you think add maths is hard, you obviously haven't learned to let go.

last year, around may, my dad had just came home from one of his trips to kuala lumpur. he called me up and asked me to come downstairs so i could help him with his things. obviously, i went down without hesitation and as i approached my father's car, i let out a horrified gasp.

in his car were two birds. they were a uniquely coloured, a deep sky blue with a nice mix of green. they had orange beaks and dark brown eyes, and they made a very funny noise i still cannot imitate. they were parrots. i stood there staring at them, and they stared right back at me. one of them pooped.. and i turned to my father, unable to fathom what had brought this on.

he told me they were now our pets, and he's going to keep them.

being the nature lover i am, i wasn't happy about these birds being trapped in cages like this. out came from my mouth, reason after reason on why these birds shouldn't be kept in cages like this. one of them being how much i disliked birds, and how they're boring. my father, happy to kindly set aside my remarks, continued bathing the birds.

they were noisy, all they ever did was make noise. they ate so much it actually suprised me they didn't turn into mutants. and they pooped, alot. i could not comprehend why my father decided on birds, these creatures are obviously depressed being stuck in a cage where they have to see the same scenery every single day. i also believed in freedom, and these poor birds didn't deserve to have their freedom stripped away from them.

if only i knew then that i would feel so differently, now. over the past year and a half, i've learned to.. bond with them. uhm, i named them parrot and carrot. it was hard to differentiate between the two, so i made a rule - the one on the left will always be parrot, and the right, carrot. i wake up in the morning and the second thing i do is talk to them, at night, i talk to them. when i feel depressed, i talk to them. i turned them into my shrink(s). i wish i could have understood a thing they said to me when i talked.. they could have been telling me to get a life for all i know.

yesterday, my father let the birds go. he left the cage open for the birds to fly away.. it took them a while to fly away. one of it scoped the entire cage before flying off. the other one remained in the cage, i think the one in the cage was carrot. carrot was always a little more timid compared to parrot. and so i was eating dinner and watching The Orphan when my dad exclaimed that Parrot had flown away.. and tears started welling up in my eyes and rolled down my cheeks. My heart felt so tight, and my stomach knotted up.

you see, i was secretly hoping they wouldn't fly away. but it had no choice, it had accidentally closed to cage on it's way out and there was no way it could go back in. when my dad pushed open the balcony door, it flew away. parrot. and my dad took carrot and set it free, as well. selfish as it might seem, i wanted to keep them with me. i love those noisy, pooping bunch of feathers. i felt pretty solemn for a bit. Oreo and Boo made sense when they said maybe it was a good thing these birds were free. I couldn't agree with them quite yet, to be honest - i still can't. funny how i was the one who was angry about the fact these birds were trapped.

i hope they'll be okay, and nothing horrible happens to them. i'll pray to God that they find their way back home - and then maybe they'll be happy.

their cage door is left open, just in case they decide that home is right here.

even if he leaves, i want him to know that i would walk 400kilometres just to see him, if he needed me to. and if i had a choice, i'd tie him, tape his mouth, hide him in a gunny sack and keep him in my pocket. but when i was small, my mummy always told me that if you love something, and it belongs to you - it will always come back to you.

and so, the cage door is always open.

the voice of an angel.

2009-10-20T22:09:00.001+08:00

Alyssa Bernal.

she can sing.

http://www.youtube.com/user/hchsknights08#p/a

you should go check her out.

when i'm gone.

2009-10-18T11:52:00.002+08:00

life lesson #5.

too much of a good thing can be a bad thing.

karin's momma makes the best chocolate cakes ever, and now i feel like an overstuffed balloon.

i swear, i am going to grow into a cow.

i hate tall, skinny, gangly people who stuff their faces.

boohoo.

i drink blue water.

2009-10-18T11:36:00.003+08:00

life lesson #4.

don't be mean.

i am going to hell.

ching wen's right, amber's right, karin's right and cherylene's right.

i am going to burn in hell.

i'm sorry, i did not intend to be evil.

or atleast i think i didn't.

my cucumber buddy.

2009-10-18T10:31:00.002+08:00

weeeehandro sembiring.

it's 2am, i can't sleep and he's playing a song for me.

i'm crying because i'm depressed and he's laughing.

i'm combing my hair, it's 6.30am and he says good morning.

exams are near, i'm stressed and he talks about cucumbers.

he likes balls and he likes bananas.

his girlfriend is named yamaha and he has a dimple on one side of his cheek.

he's maaah brothaa from anothaa mothaaa.

geez, i should be shot for being so lame.

to be honest, i didn't quite like him when i first met him.

what i knew about him was really from another person's perspective,

i didn't quite know who he really was.

clearly, i was wrong about him. i judged without knowing him, which was wrong of me.

because he's the bestest friend you'll ever find.

you don't meet people like him often.

someone who'd look past your weaknesses and remind you of your strengths.

he doesn't get agitated listening to me talk about the same things.

patiently answers me never ending questions.

is willing to buy me a hot air balloon and drive me around once he gets his car.

spends his precious credit on me.

he even took a rapid to come support me in queens during the sales.

i've dragged him on shopping trips.

made him stay up on the phone with me.

forced him to read my blog everytime i've updated it.

made him listen to my favourite songs.

yapped about hot guys.

turned him into a girl more than once.

announced to the whole world he's gay. oops, doing it again x)

forced him to eat chocolates and ice creams.

stole his food and his drinks.

forced him to learn songs.

he's my cucumber buddy, my walking buddy, my mcflurry and oreo buddy.

and he's my best friend in the whole wide wide world.

many of you who have read new moon would know what bella refers to jacob as, and i'd like to refer to him as that. my personal sun. because he makes me laugh when i can't even smile.

p.s. his password is iloveoreoballs2493

i love you, oreo.

you better get me a hot air balloon.

tigger.

2009-10-09T18:58:00.002+08:00

this is to the coolest tiger in the world.

thank you for calling me up, when i was about to burst into tears.

thank you for telling me i had pretty hair the moment i picked up.

thank you for saying you believed in me every day during this week.

thank you for checking up on me everyday.

thank you for knowing exactly when i need you to call.

thank you for naming me after the coolest bear in the world.

thank you for playing the guitar for me.

thank you for not turning your back on me when i told you my secret.

thank you for understanding my pms-ish moods.

thank you for listening to my problems.

if i could pick one person who gets to have a million bucks, it would be me, but you'd be the person i split it with ;)

i heart you, tigger <3

i had pizza for dinner

2009-09-26T11:52:00.003+08:00

good morning!

I had pizza for dinner last night and i got married to a crystal disco ball.

The day before, my bras were momentarily stolen by a bra stealing picture taking pig.

My little piglet wants to cut her long pretty hair.

I am beyond pissed with him.

I am dreading school.

I love qieee.

i want to kickass in chemistry.

Much love.

i am mentally ill.

2009-09-23T11:20:00.001+08:00

he's so hot.

i feel so sad.

i am mentally ill.

i had mushroom soup for breakfast.

2009-09-23T11:00:00.003+08:00

life lesson #3.

milk and cheese don't go together.

milk and cheese are both dairy products, no?

heck, cheese is made from milk. and you'd think they would taste awesome together.

they don't.

in the spirit of starting off a new day, i'd like to say yesterday was a good day.

and in the spirit of living each day to the fullest..

i will study today, and study and study.

i will drink a 2 cups of milk.

i will hug a tree.

i will go to the gym.

i will tell someone i love them.

much love.

and that person is my pig of a best friend.

i love you, wen.

my oats has fruits in it.

2009-09-21T10:45:00.003+08:00

life lesson #3.

guys are idiots.

if you're a guy, reading this, my apologies if i have struck a knife into your heart with that mere sentence.

but the truth hurts.

i can't stand the way guys think they're always right about everything.

there's an argument, they have to win. even if they're aware of the fact that they are clearly wrong. but no, they won't just admit their damned mistake and shut up. i don't care if you have your ego you want to protect! you bruise it, it'll heal! as does my skin when i knock into something hard.

and let's talk about their egos. i tell you, sometimes it's so big there's hardly enough room to breathe. note to you, your big ass ego isn't going to get you anywhere. you can go around arguing with everybody and making people agree with you. just so you know, not everybody listens to you or likes you for a matter of fact.

and i for one, despise it when they don't let you have an opinion on something. ever heard of the phrase, one man's meat is another man's poison? yeah, i am all for that. just because i don't agree with you, doesn't mean the world is going to end and you'll lose your self righteousness. dude, take a chill pill.

here's the thing, when a guy cheats in a relationship, his guy friends don't say shit. and the girl's friends only say one thing and one thing only, he's such an ass, you don't deserve him. do they really think that's going to help?

the catch? when a girl cheats in a relationship, oh, the world roof comes toppling down. the guy's friends label her as a whore. the guy calls the girl a whore, and does not bother to ask why she did it, and her friends say the same thing. you don't deserve him, he's such an ass.

and when a guy hooks up with another girl right after breaking up with his girlfriend, whom he usually refers to as the love of his life - and she falls for it, it's completely okay. nobody says anything, except the girl's friends who tell her the guy is an ass and she deserves better. but when a girl hooks up with a guy after she breaks up with someone. she's a slut? what's the male word for a slut?

in another context, it's okay for guys to do what they do but it's not okay for girls to do the same.

so much for not being sexist. *scoffs*

what i can't stand is when you tell a guy that you think guys are assholes, they get defensive and they start coming up with reasons so stupid you wonder how they rule politics. why can't you just agree that you're all part time assholes? heck, if you tell me that girls whine way too much, i'll agree with you. i'll smile and nod my head if you tell me we're as fickle as the weather nowadays. i'll agree if you say we're stupid enough to believe that if a guy is a jerk to you, he likes you. don't get defensive over something that i am reinstating as a fact. take it up with the guys who give the majority of you an image as so and so.

i feel better now.

much love.

my hair shampoo smells like fruit.

2009-09-21T10:26:00.006+08:00

life lesson #2.

being a kid is the bomb.

or..

my 6 year-old cousin is smarter than you.

this was an interview with my cousin, Jodie.

she's six and she reads the newspaper.

1. Do you like boys?

No.

2. Why don't you like boys?

Because they're stupid.

3. Who do you like most in this world?

You. [me, whee]

4. What makes you happy?

Dogs.

5. If you could choose money or love, what would you choose?

Money.

6. Why?

Because i like money.

7. What do you want to do when you grow up?

I want to buy a dog.

8. Are you happy?

No., my sister keeps scolding me.

9. Has anyone ever backstabbed you?

No.

10. What makes you sad?

No toys :(

11. What do you worry most about?

Michael jackson. Because he's dead and i love him.

12. Do you want to be Michael Jackson? Why?

Yes. Because he's rich.

13. Do you have a boyfriend?

Yes, but he broke my heart.

14. What did he do?

He was stupid, yo!

now, i don't know about you, but i want to go back to kindergarten where my biggest problem was my chocolate chip cookie didn't have much chocolate chips.

my body gel is blue.

2009-09-21T09:57:00.005+08:00

life lesson #1.

laughter really is the best medicine.

here are a few jokes, laugh till you pee.

joke1.

"I first suspected that my father was gay when I asked him to pick a number between one and ten and he was all, 'I'm gay.' That's when I first grew suspicious."

joke2.

A large, powerfully-built guy meets a woman at a bar. After a number of drinks, they agree to go back to his place. As they are making out in the bedroom, he stands up and starts to undress.

After he takes his shirt off, he flexes his muscular arms and says, "See that, baby? That''s 1000 pounds of dynamite!" She begins to drool.

The man drops his pants, strikes a bodybuilder''s pose, and says, referring to his bulging thighs, "See those, baby? That''s 1000 pounds of dynamite!" She is aching for action at this point.

Finally, he drops his underpants, and after a quick glance, she grabs her purse and runs screaming to the front door.

He catches her before she is able to leave and asks, "Why are you in such a hurry to go?"

She replies, "With 2000 pounds of dynamite and such a short fuse, I was afraid you were about to blow!"

joke3.

A woman's husband had been slipping in and out of a coma for several months, yet she stayed by his bedside every single day. When he came to, he motioned for her to come nearer.

As she sat by him, he said, "You know what? You have been with me all through the bad times. When I got fired, you were there to support me. When my business failed, you were there. When I got shot, you were by my side. When we lost the house, you gave me support. When my health started failing, you were still by my side... You know what?"

"What dear?" She asked gently.

"I think you bring me bad luck."

grilled sandwhiches, baybeeeh.

2009-09-08T20:53:00.004+08:00

are you hungry as you're reading this?
i am.

have you ever felt a pang of hunger as you're watching your favourite show in the whole wide world?
having a phone conversation with your bestest friend in the whole wide world?
when you're reading the best book in the whole wide world?
or or when you're visiting the coolest blog in the whole wide world?
well, fear not. i am going to post up a recipe for all you people who can't even toast bread or fry and egg without burning it.

first of all, you'd need a few ingredients that you can easily find around the house.. or steal from your neighbours house.
you would need a banana, peanut butter, bread, a pan, a stove, a spatula, gas, a toaster, butter, plates, fork, an apron, a facemask, your handphone, good songs in your handphone, yesterday's newspaper, a vacuum, a fire estuingisher, and sand.

if you hate banana, like me, and you're now crying because i didn't think of a different fruit.. get over it.
try this out before you start complaining. geez, so hard to please you people.

alright, start off with mashing the banana in a small bowl.. or a big bowl. mash it until it's consistent and smooth.

now, toast your bread.

slather on the peanut butter on one slice of your bread and banana on the other. and let the two breads meet each other. be generous with the peanut butter.. you can burn off the calories by vacuuming the house, making newspaper puppets, and dancing to the songs in your phone after which.

now, heat a pan and throw in some butter. let the butter melt until the sszzz sound stops.
put in the sandwhich, and toast it until it's golden brown on both sides. add as much butter as you'd like.. but if your bread goes soggy like a wet cat, that ain't my problem!
serve your grilled sandwhich with a cup of cold milk or hot milo.

p.s. - don't forget to clean the kitchen.

p.p.s. - try not to eat this everyday, or else you might not fit into your jeans no more :(

candy.

2009-09-05T20:18:00.002+08:00

i think i'm going to change my layout. this layout is pretty and fun.. but it doesn't make me all googly eyed and drooling.

i can't stand people who are racist.

oh, for goodness sake. would you stop acting like you own the goddamned world?

so what if your skin colour is different from mine?

doesn't mean my body runs on diesel and yours runs on petrol.

for crying out loud. grow up.

if all you see when you look at someone is their skin colour, i truly feel sorry for you.

you are going no where.

you're in malaysia! open your eyes. people here are from all sorts of races and cultures.

some are even from mixed races and cultures.

if people can shake off their mindset about colour; why not you?

are you so arrogant that you believe you're better than everybody else?

do you know that by thinking so, you've automatically labelled yourself as an asshole?

if you don't like the other races here.. then go back to your homeland.

perhaps you'd feel more comfortable there.

just a post, to let people know where i stand on the whole racism thing.

i'm all for 1Malaysia.

*waves merdeka flag*

except next year.. why don't we pump up the merdeka celebration just a little?

i don't think anybody was excited about the countdown, and i can bet that no one bothered to wake up to watch the parade in the morning.

heck, i didn't even know there was a parade until it ended.

p.s. - dhivia, i think you rock, too.

doesn't really matter what mean people say.. they're just jealous of your eyelashes.

much love.

teh tarik xD

2009-09-02T16:05:00.005+08:00

*grins*

my favourite advertisement.

you're my wonderwall.

2009-08-31T21:29:00.002+08:00

i know this post is a tad too late, but i've been finding the right time to which i have the mood to type.

so, michael jackson passed away.

he was the king of pop, and was a smashing success.. and then he got charged for child molestation and everybody labelled him a weirdo.

he passed away. and suddenly the whole world is his biggest fan ever?

all i've heard ever since that day is how much these people love him, and how much they like his songs.

where were you when he was broke? when he needed to sell off neverland, because he needed the cash?

where were you when he was filed against by so many charges?

where were you when he needed his fans?

if you have been his fan since you were little.. i mean, really his fan.

then stop reading, this is really not for you.

but i just can't stand those superficial people who claim to be his biggest fan when they don't know NUTS about the guy and his songs.

just because everyone loves him, it doesn't mean you have to, too.

why be part of the majority? can't you just put down your foot ane be honest?

i'll be honest. i don't like michael jackson. he doesn't appeal to me.

but i like his songs, not all of them. just two, or three.

i didn't cry when he died.

i'm not heartless. i felt sorry for his kids, they need him.

but i wasn't devastated to the core, or claimed to be devastated either.

much love.

danny's hilarious joke. haar.

2009-08-31T19:20:00.002+08:00

Element name: WOMAN.
Symbol: WO.

Atomic weight: 'Don't even go there'.
Physical properties: Generally round in form. Boils at nothing and may freeze at any time. Melts whenever treated properly. Very bitter if not used well.

Chemical properties: Very active. Highly unstable. Possesses strong affinity to gold, silver, platinum,and precious gemstones. Violent when left alone. Able to absorb great amounts of exotic food. Turns
slightly green when placed next to a better specimen.

Usage: Highly ornamental. An extremely good catalyst for dispersion of wealth. Probably the most powerful income reducing agent known.

Caution: Highly explosive in inexperienced hands.

Element: MAN.
Symbol: XY.

Atomic weight: (180 +/- 50).

Physical properties: Solid at room temperature. Gets bent out of shape easily. Fairly dense and sometimes flaky. Difficult to find a pure sample. Due to age and rust, older samples are unable to conduct electricity as well as younger samples.

Chemical properties: Attempts to bond with WO any chance it can get. Also tends to form strong bonds with itself. Becomes explosive when mixed with Kd (child) for prolonged periods of time. Can be neutralised by saturating with alcohol.

Usage: None known. Possibly good methane source.

Caution: In the absence of WO, this element rapidly decomposes and begins to smell.

success.

2009-08-31T11:13:00.001+08:00

do you like my new layout?

earl grey tea <3

2009-08-31T00:44:00.004+08:00

my sms buddy.

chewie, happy birthday!

i'm the first one to wish you! oh, i can now pack my bags and go to canada without regrets.

granted, digi was being a bitch. and phone lines would probably be jammed due to everyone

wishing eash other Selamat Hari Merdeka.

but let's be honest here, it was my undeniable gift that managed to let me be first *grins*

this next part will probably sound cheesy and very mushy.

so, for those of you who can't stand soppy parts in a movie - this won't be any different.

since i met you, in form 1. you have definitely made a difference in my life.

and even if you're 17 now, i still feel like you're that girl who's form2. awwh, you're growing up.

just the other day, you passed your undang test [yes, world. she passed her undang test. how she did it, i don't know] and soon you'll be driving me around :)

& so you keep saying that you're boring. that you wish weren't so boring.

maybe people find you boring. or maybe you're doomed to a life of boredom.

earth to cherylene! you are not boring. not even by an entire 10 miles..

if you were so mind-numbingly boring, don't you think i would have fallen asleep talking to you?

gosh, i'd probably fall asleep typing this post. haha!

i don't know anyone else that can make me laugh as hard as you do, just by being lame.

and i mean that in the nicest way possible. i mean, i could be whining about life's cruelty, and

that's when you choose to say the quirkest thing known to man, and this actually makes me burst out laughing.

nooo, not just a mere grin where i go back to cursing the next minute.

i'm talking about full on laughter. tummy aches. cheek cramps. tears welling out of my eyes.

you're funny. be a comedian, i'll come to every show and bring a bunch of drunk dudes.

somebody besides me has to laugh :)

remember that time when i was crying because this girl decided to bad mouth me on facebook? and even if i knew that she was worthless and what she said didn't mean shit - i still cried. and you were telling me that she's just a harmless dummy that i should ignore and you were asking if i was okay.

exams just passed, as we all would know. and i was having this breakdown - it happens every exam.

physics. ohhhhh, physics. i couldn't go to the gym that day, and so i was crying because i missed a day of gym.

i, as usual, caught onto this weird idea that i was going to grow fat and then eat a lot of chocolates because being fat would make me sad. lose all my teeth, due to the chocolates and then fail physics because i look like frankenstein's wife. fail life because of physics, and end up a nasi lemak aunty with no teeth. i would probably smell like sambal and ikan bilis and have weird hair. and what would be even more sad, was if nobody bought my nasi lemak. and you promised you would buy it all and grow fat with me. and you were the one who hasn't finished studying when trials was the next day.

i was doing my annual report the other day, and you stayed up with me even if you were hell sleepy, because i didn't want to do work alone. listened to my lame jokes, because i needed an audience - and laughed at them, even if they were astoundingly lame. given me advice on what to do about a certain someone, and listened to me rant about how i'm 'in love' or heartbroken. answered my endless and mind boggling questions. learned to understand the complicated way i choose to put things. fixed my rubix cube. helped me with my lisan.. well, not really. read my english essay because i was so excited about me reaching 1000 words. reading this blog whenever i've updated it.

i can can name you atleast 10 people who would be willing to do anything for you.

because you're the kind of friend that would stay up for hours just to listen to the same old story, over and over - if it makes the other person feel better.

i know that you're the kind of person that will miss someone even if they've been nothing but cold.

i am certain that you're the kind of person that would help ants by giving them your lollipop, even if you crave them like a fat kid loves chocolate cake.

even if i decide to start a campaign to save trees tomorrow night, at 11.59pm.. the day before school starts, that you'll be there with me. yes, you would bring your pillow with you and sleep while i do all the work. but still, you'll be there.

so, if anybody is mean to you.. i'll help them get a new face.

i love you, chewie.

p.s. i miss my pendrive, very much indeed.

p.p.s. - learn to watch horror movies, you pig.

this is what i see in you.

2009-08-30T16:23:00.002+08:00

god help me.

how do i even change skins?

this is all so confusing to me.

i need a blog fairygodmother.

oh.

Oasis are mindblowingly awesome.

wonderwall, go download it.

dannykins.

2009-08-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

danny likes..

DANIEL says (10:02 PM):

*pig

*i love peanuts

*n almonds

*n cashewsa

*n macadamians

*n hazelnuts

DANIEL says (10:03 PM):

*n chocolate chips

*n coloured rice on ice cream

*n rice crispies

*n honey stars

*n wad nots

*n i like cabbage

DANIEL says (10:04 PM):

*i LOVE cabbage

*n instant noodles

*with roasted sausages

*the red sweet ones

*is tht significant? >_>

significant enough to post up on my blog ♥

yo gabba gabba.

2009-08-27T21:25:00.003+08:00

5 ways to prevent acne.

it's a bright sunny morning. oh, you wake up with the birds chirping and sunlight streaming through your window and onto your warm comfy bed. you smile, knowing it's going to be a beautiful day. your feet touches the cool linoleum floor and you walk towards the mirror. blissful.

you look at the mirror. you gasp. OH. a pimple. it hurts when you touch it, and it looks like your face is the breeding ground for tomatoes.

follow these 5 simple steps to prohibit the growth of life sucking, confidence shattering acne.

1. ride a yellow bicycle.

2. climb a dying yellow leafed tree

3. feed a cat wearing a yellow bell

4. listen to yellow by coldplay

5. wear a yellow shirt

if you have tried the above steps, but failed to hinder acne.

then you must perform the following;

i warn you.

the following steps are hazardous to one's health.

only the brave can do it, and come out alive.

6. squeeze yellow lemon juice onto pimple.

7. scream kuchibaba!!! in yellow subtitles.

however, if your acne problem persists.

i recommend you stop reading stupid articles like this, and see a dermatologist.

for more enquiries, please contact Villeena Sharmila at 555-634-0973 or email me at ilikeyellow@yellow.com

much love.

my red ball.

2009-08-27T21:20:00.003+08:00

do you have a favourite planet?

one planet, where you wouldn't mind spending your life on.

doesn't matter what you brought with you..

a box of paper clips.

a bag of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.

your DVD player and a bunch of dvd's, duh.

your printer.

a can of redbull.

i have a favourite planet.

MARS.

my big red ball of gas and earth ♥

it's supposed to be visible tonight, at gurney drive.

at 2 in the morning.

i won't be there.

i will now shoot myself.

much love,

amber can have my clothes.

aqilah can have my dvd's.

give my sister all my money.

karin can have my squash racquet

[take up squash my skinny darling].

ching wen can have my phone.

ching wen the babi. nyaaah.

2009-08-25T00:10:00.006+08:00

oh, hon. happy birthday!

i'm the second one to wish you. my life is now complete.

but let's rewind.. jaslyn was the first. but, she's with you at the time.

in other words, it's not counted.

I'M THE FIRST, no? xD

you're extremely loud. believe me, i'm not exaggerating.

sitting beside you too much has put a dent in my hearing.

oh, lord. have mercy on my ears.

you won't accept me as your girlfriend, but you'll accept vonne and lin jia.

secretly, i know you want me, love.

i appreciate the way you switched on the computer, demanding i turn on facebook.

so you can let that girl have a piece of your mind.

you stuck up for me.

i remember that time when i came home, and was depressed because of youknowwhat.

we were painting a tree, and you were telling me i sucked at painting.

you spilled milo on the floor while munching on sugar biscuits.

fought with me about whether my sister should play heal the world or the way you make me feel.

i was yelling and you were yelling.

oh, it was the best afternoon i had that week.

when i think of you, hon. all i can think about is how we're always yelling at each other.

who wished karin first on her birthday.

who told xing ying her cousin was cute.

who gets to have their way.

sometimes, i think we scream at each other because it's fun.

one of the reasons i'm glad i joined YE this year, is because..

that's the reason why i'm staying awake. sacrifising sleep.

writing this on my blog, for you.

[damn, i should be given a nobel prize for this]

i don't know how long we're going to be best friends.

and i'm not quite certain if we'll refrain from tearing off each other's heads.

but i do hope, that we stay this way.

i hope that you'll come to my house and eat my sugar biscuits.

i hope that you'll continue telling me about your mind boggling love life.

i hope that you'll whine and curse about nonsensical things.

i hope that you'll continue being a little bit useless, it makes you who you are ;)

oh, i love you, wen.

P.S. - i'll wish you good morning everyday until i forget how to speak.

P.P.S - you have my shirts, love. haaah.

chicken.

2009-08-22T21:58:00.003+08:00

ohh! look, a post :D

i woke up, and oh, i wanted to stay in bed. it was raining outside.. and the air was cool, and inside my comforter, i felt like i was in a cocoon. yumm.

ate curry mee for breakfast. can anybody say love?

went to aak, around 10.50am. sher rynn came a little later..

and we were both feeling the nerves.

bleehh. the program went well. i didn't faint in front of anybody while hosting, oh, thank god!

i thought saints xaviers should have gotten the first prize, but it was public voting *shrugs*

and qieeee's team should have definitely gotten 2nd. i was like wth when i saw the results :X

i'd like to thank yoke pin for asking me to go. it was fun.

sher rynn and i went to prangin, and she pierced her ear o.o

ate dinner there with her and her mummy.

was teasing teng shin on how he should lose weight :P

came home, watched TV.

came online.

i just watched True Blood. second season. ohhhh, bill told sookie he loved her <3

tomatoes.

2009-08-20T21:12:00.003+08:00

i was thinking, the other day. in my car..

then i got out and cherylene pulled my hair.

i told her and my sister about this.. idea.

what if everyone studied a certain subject the day after the exam is over?

like, for example. today is monday and tomorrow is tuesday. on monday morning,

you have a chemistry paper and on tuesday morning you have a dreaded physics paper.

but on monday night, instead of doing physics.. you read chemistry.

and on tuesday, you read physics. get it?

i wonder how everyone would feel if they did that.

a lame joke.

2009-08-19T16:13:00.002+08:00

two atoms were walking down the street, when suddenly atom A shouts.

" HELP! i lost an electron! "

atom B replies.

"are you sure?"

and so, atom A says..

"YES! I'm Positive!"

raindrops

2009-08-19T15:47:00.003+08:00

it was very early, in the morning. i was on my way to school, it was raining. it has been raining these past few days. i like the air when it rains, fills your lungs sweet air. yumm.

and so, i was looking at the drops of rain that had settled on the car window. tracing my fingers on the glass, i realised..

SHIT HAPPENS.

oh, no. am not going to talk about the cruelty of life. way past that, i've now developed some acceptance that people don't always smile back at you, that not everyone cares about trees. people don't like the sun. nobody will do anything unless it benefits them. the people who you thought won't ever hurt, cut you deepest. people that were supposedly your best friends sneak up on you, and backstab you. something like what you see on a cartoon. 'Hey! i'm your best friend and i just stabbed you in the back!" with a big smile plastered on their face.

now, this is the part where is give you a few examples of people who are exceptions..

i know people that smile back at me, even when they're depressed.

they don't really care much for trees, but they pat and talk to them.

not crazy about the sun, either. but they talk to it.

they do things, in my favour.

let me have my way, just because.

listen to me whine about why my hair is weird.

nod their heads at my enthusiasm for oldies. [OH. wham! - freedom and boy meets girl - waiting for a star to fall. awesome songs. ]

recently, there was an incident. wasn't really the happiest thing that could happen to me. but i realised who cared, who was worth holding on to and who shouldn't even be cared for.

i really do appreciate everyone who defended me, really.

i appreciate it that you people took the time.

what i'm trying to say is, thank you.

for everything.

i'm cool.

2009-08-19T15:45:00.001+08:00

i decided, as of now, i will update my blog.

everyday, if possible.

exams.

2009-05-30T21:03:00.005+08:00

*grins*

hello, humans of the world [ even the ones who don't live in this world, but let's not get to that]

first off all, my apologies..

for posting this post, a month late.

yeahh.. we have all established my lack of skills for blogging :D

on the 15th of may, i entered my classroom with this feeling of nonchalance.

it was a rather easy paper, see.

however, the following monday... yeah. that's when it all came crashing down.

exams.

gaaah. they mere mention of it brings me down to my knees in dread.

i can practically hear you wincing from jitters.

if you're one of those straight A students, who wears glasses due to all that reading and dress so neat your parents glow with pride at the sight of you. you like doing sums and writing essays to show off your writing skills. your study table and drawer is alphabetized and organized according to subjects. friends and relations matter, just not as much as you attending your tuition classes. ahh, you. you're one of those people who grin with glee at the mention of exams, no? the tense atmosphere in the classroom, the pindrop silence and gasps and groans of your classmates as they read their papers... *shudders* well, congratulations are in order, because you'll probably ace all your testpapers.

and then there are people like me. no, i'm not going to tell you about my lucky story about how i found a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow.. and by which i also found the luck to ace all my exams without studying. oh hell, those only happen in disney movies. i study - the day before exams start. uhhm, i usually don't panic on the day of the exam itself.. just a month before. you're probably thinking, if you panic a month before.. how come you don't start studying then? very very good question. procrastination, is the word. i tell myself, it's alright.. i have a month to study, everything will be okay. a month later.. well, you get the point. we're lazy people who don't tend to our business until the due date is tomorrow. but somehow, lady luck happens to smile upon us - every now and then, this is where i manage to keep my head above water. in other words, away from my mummy's kitchen knife.

finally, and then there are people who just don't give a rats ass. the phrase 'ignorance is bliss' is probably their life's motto. please do excuse me if the following cuts deep, but do bear in mind that this is merely an opinion and no offense should be taken - this is not directed generally at you. i personally can't stand these people. if you want to go around and waste your time and blow off your studies, please, do it quietly. people who spend their time partying or going out with their friends the weekend before exams, and then telling everybody how they don't care, thinking everybody just envies you and your carefree attitude. it's sad, really.

i don't know what it is about exams, but it does have this effect of making you just a little bit more hardworking, no? maybe it's because you want to get good grades to make your parents happy, or maybe it's because you want to remain your position in the form or class. uhhm, could be because your mum or dad promised you that brand new handphone that you've been hinting at. *shrugs and smiles* everyone has their own reason to why they consume gallons of coffee, and splash cold water on their faces ; hoping to keep awake to cram as much information as possible.

this may sound really creepy, but exams are pretty fun. it's like, opening a box of.. well, a secret box of something. if i knew, it wouldn't be secret anymore, would it? anyway, back to this box of secrets. as you sit for each paper, you're probably trying to steady your quickened breathing and slowdown your rapid heartbeat. your hands are probably clammy and cold. mmm, that familiar feeling of nerves, can't say i'm going to miss it.. but sure as hell don't hate it. keeps you aware, you know? suddenly, it doesn't matter how long you stayed up or how stressed you were the night before. it doesn't matter how you're going to feel when the exams ends or how you felt before it started.. all that matters is you're reading the questions. some you know, and some you don't. but you collectedly pick up your pen and inhale, ready to fill those papers with fresh ink. every now and then, you check the clock to make sure you have ample time to finish your paper, and you look at the teacher and she looks at you. your classmates look at each other.. and everybody just stares at everybody with this thick awkward silence hanging in the air. it makes me want to laugh my heart out.. except, that'd probably get me in heaps of trouble.

my eyes are bloody itchy.

just when you think exams are your enemies, think again.

it's the results, buddies. results.

oh yes... those two digits ( or single digit, in certain cases ) that either make you grin with joy or cry in agony.

waiting for the teacher to call out your name is like.. waiting for Ryan Secreast to announce who's been eliminated or who won the current season of American Idol. Yes, i know, you probably heard who won, before you even got the chance to watch it for yourself. geez, people these days.. just love taking the fun out of waiting. as i was saying, the way ryan secreast taunts you with the results.. only to say, ' be back after the break '? yeah.. that's how it feels when teachers are handing out the results. it feels like she's personally taunting you *bites lip*

damn, i hate exam results.

Karinieeee.

2009-04-24T16:06:00.009+08:00

you see, the other day, i was at this public speaking competition.

she followed me there, this girl. her familiar face and scent was sort of calming.

her hugs and good lucks were very very encouraging.

she cheered for me, and reminded me to breathe every 5 seconds.

she couldn't sit beside me, but she was looking at me the whole time, making sure i was okay.

during my speech, she and ching wen were looking at my paper, making sure i didn't forget anything and laughing at the right parts. from where i stood, i could only see two of my best friends.. making sure their friend would rock this speech. nobody else noticed, lol. they were looking at me, engrossed at my sense of conviction for my topic, eating disorders. my teacher had this look that said she was proud of me. but i saw the two of them, and one of the reasons why i wasn't nervous anymore was because i knew if i forgot, they'd remind me. no, not of my speech.. to just have fun.

i didn't win, LOL. i wasn't sad though, because i though i was good. haha.

she hugged me, and told me that i was still the best speaker she knew.

yeoh sue lynn, karin.

26th may 1993.

my singing tennis player.

a very skinny woman.

i wouldn't be suprised if someone told me she was fatless *grins at karin*

straight hair, that grows too fast for her own good, really.

has the sharpest features i've ever seen, she's my little pixie! *bobs head and smiles*

loves the colour purple. chicken is her favourite source of protein, although she does like fish.

she's starting to despise eggs, you see, it's imperative that she eats atleast 3 eggs a day.

tennis playing chick, needs to increase muscle or something.

when i'm complaining how fat i'm going to be, she'll tell me this, god gave us mouths, and god made good food, so we eat. LOL! *laughs and shakes head*

add maths, she got it faster than any of us did. a freaking genius. what can i say?

has stage fright. sms-es really really fast.

likes watching american idol. loves facebook. thinks MSN is boring.

i have a lot of friends, girl friends. out of all of them, i can say with certainty that

she's not one of those girls who will cringe and whine when they break a nail.

give her lemons, she'll make lemonade. make the rain pour, and she'll wait for the rainbow to come out. scream at her, and she'll simply ignore you. and if failure decides to pay her a visit, she'll grin her baby smile at it. i lean on her, for support, figuratively speaking. uhhm, she's been there. hah, even when i was being afemaledog (*grins*).

my rapid buddy. follows me whenever i have this sudden need to take rapid, walks with me simply because i love walking. says hello to the sun because she knows it'll make me happy. does everything in her power to make me smile when i'm grumpy and whiny. listens to all my problems and issues when i'm 'depressed'. dances with me when i make her. does the most weirdest things, all because i'm asking her to do it. teaches me add maths and everything else i don't know.

frankly, if it weren't for her.. my accounts would probably suck. LOL!

we don't always see eye to eye. our opinions differ and we clash ideas. she gets on my nerves and i know, sometimes, she'd like to strangle me.

she puts up with me. she thinks i'm worth it, you see.

*shakes head* i'm not sure where you'd be able to find someone who will put up so much from you, and for you, because they think you're worth it. i guess i can say i'm pretty darn lucky, no?

reads me like an open book, or a piece of clear cut glass.

i don't need to explain how i feel or why i do the things i do. she just knows.

guesses my thoughts before they're even formed, predicts my actions before i even perform them and finishes my sentences before i even start them.

i could probably slap someone, and karin's not going to ask my why i did it.. she'd probably just write it off as one of my tantrums and tell me that person was an ass anyway. LOL.

though, don't get me wrong, she does put me back to my place. tells me like it is.

the world does not revolve around me and i've got to not be so soft!

not let people push me over. i'm not a pushover, or insanely nice. i'm pretty stubborn, grumpy, and very much bossy. it's just, i cut some slack for certain people, and she makes sure if it's worth cutting them some slack.

*shrugs*

i don't know how to put it in perfect words, so that everyone can understand.

however, i do know how to put it in my words, and be rest assured that she'll understand.

*huffs*

uhhhm, we're not as close as amber and i are

we don't fight as much as aqilah and i do *smiles and pokes aqilah*

she doesn't make me laugh as much as wihandro does.

is not interested in books the same way linjia and i are.

doesn't share my love for the sun like teng shin does.

cherylene and i sms each other more then she and i do.

ching wen tells me her feelings a little more than karin does.

i ask jeong mark more random questions than i ask her.

doesn't smack my booty like ame does.

she does not do weird awkward things that danny does *grins at dannykins*

definitely does not ask me to relax more like vonne does *smacks vonne's ass*

but she's that person i count on when i think the world is conspiring against me.

i love you, karinieee.

*lets you pat my head*

[ a little note to karin; okay, it's not a poem. i wanted to write one.. but poems and me aren't the best combination, hon. LMAO. ]

Red Flag.

2009-04-24T14:50:00.010+08:00

12th of April.

Anak-anak Kota.

Kongsi Gelap Battlefield Game.

Phoenix vs. Bawang Putih.

*drums play*

oh, oh. i'm in phoenix by the way.

after tuition, i came home to find aqilah in my house.

bathed with such speed, i amazed myself.

ate lunch in the car while discussing our strategy. hee.

aqilah was asking me to slow down my chewing. LOL.

we reached the youth centre at 1pm.

the sun was beating down, the air was hot and dry.

we walked into the youth centre, and it was like walking into a different realm altogether.

the building was cool, and my heart started accelarating with a sense of exhiliration. gah.

i was downright nervous.

the whole thing started off with warm up games.

we won the first one.

the whole point of the game was to make the opponent team laugh. LOL.

second game, bawang putih beat us by a point. hee

making sure everybody remembered the game rules.

tara and me. LOL. exchanging clues.

see, the whole point of this game is to get as many of your enemy's flag as you can.

two groups, kan? well, we've both chosen 3 assets.

buildings, or people that we think are important.

we even went out to the residents and got them to pick out assets that are important to them.

so anyway, each team has a leader, guards and flag catchers. y ou can have as many guards as you'd like. uhhm, guards can catch guards and flag catchers, anywhere. leaders can only catch leaders, on their own territory. guards can't catch leaders *grins*

the whole game was just awesome, really.

i have to salute bawang putih, they were very brave.

tara (the leader) was more than willing, to come into my territory and try to sneak into the headquarters and save her guards. she was very sneaky, honestly. i walk away for like.. a few minutes. and aqilah would be screaming my name because tara had somehow managed to come very near our headquarters. and off i would run after her, under the sun. my face hot and sweat trickling down my forehead, my legs not giving way.

their guards were good, one even brought a bicycle, smart really. uhhm, they ventured into our territory and they were fast. very fast. their flag catchers were evidently not anywhere close to giving up. smart, very smart. they created decoys, fake flags. 3 of them. haha!

but i was very very proud of phoenix.

it was nice, seeing all of us working together. especially the guards and flag catchers.. amongst each other.

aqilah was good, she guarded our headquarters with such fierceness, even i didn't want to mess with her. LOL.

sylvia, ohmy, she was brave. she walked along the streets with this determined look to get like all of the other teams guards. haha! it was so cute. rushdi was good, he was bored because none of them really passed where he was standing. but boy.. was he fast. jeremy was a good boy, he took care of all the 'prisoners' XD

jing xuan, zhi hong, alvin and my little david. our flag catchers. oh, they were just awesome.

they were fast and quick, thinking on their feet.

and i can't even begin to tell you how brave david was. he was at the enemy headquarters, alone and he could call me and ask me to send someone to help him get the flags. haha! the cutest 12-year old boy ever.

they caught all 3 fake flags, and 2 of the real flags. (i got the last one, we were running out of time and i was the only one who couldn't get caught)

the way to catch a person was to swipe them with paint, each colour similiar to the teams colour.

ours was obviously red. haha.

at one point, all the boys looked like they'd fallen into a pit of paint or something.

seeing them chasing each other down the streets, running after tara, worrying my head off when zhi hong got caught - he was one of our fastest runners you see.

my worries started easing though, as one by one, the other teams members entered our headquarters, with red paint obvious on their skins.

i tell you, when i saw one of bawang putih's guard's, anwar pulling david back to their headquarters. i was.. heartbroken. LOL! he was so cute, he was like, 'vill, help me' and i was helpless. because i didn't want tara to catch me - if she did, then i wouldn't be able to save whoever else who gets caught. and i promised david i would come get him.

he reached the headquarters and he called me, asking me to hurry. haha! XD

at one point, just as i was coming out of our headquarters, sylvia told me tara was at lumut lane.

i was walking towards that lane, with a very slow pace and kept looking back.. to avoid any elements of suprise. LOL. i was walking very slowly, and rushdi caught my eye. showing me signals tara was there.. *grins*

i walked to her, she saw me.. and the expression she gave. LOL! it was so cute.

she ran to lumut lane and stood there.. i swiped the paint on her hand.

and she was saying she was safe.. being in lumut lane. until i told her that, lumut lane was part of lebuh acheh.

nyah. i caught her.

she was a good sport about it, laughing and talking as i linked hands with her and told her this was fun.. but the paint is annoying and all.

now that tara was caught.. i was free to run to the enemy's territory.

i went to go get my little david.

i found zhi hong and jing xuan there.. finding a way out. haha!

i swiped all their hands with the red paint and started running to their assets..

they all ran, fast. back to sher rynn, to give her the flags.

i was tired and sweaty and icky. ughhh.

but i had to go look for one more flag. just one more.

i was walking along the street.. looking.

i reached this shop, and the uncles were telling me to look very closely.

to walk very slowly.. and so i did.

i found the flag *grins*

ran, and passed it to our guards to give it to sher rynn.

like i said, it was bloody awesome.

i'd do that again, any day.

if looks could kill.

2009-03-26T23:30:00.003+08:00

our young enterprise blog.

we created it last monday, heee.

sorry, but my blog was dying, so yeah.

visit the blog, as often as possible.

it's really about us working, and the products we come up with.

i think it's fun, it makes me happy.

mainly because i'm doing it, but really, it's fun.

Click here.

it'll take you to the blog.

oh, in case you'd like to put it in your blog or facebook profile, feel free.

this is the link, iris-iflookscouldkill.blogspot.com

and and and, if there's anything you'd like to ask or say, email us, iris_cgl@hotmail.com

much love,

milo is awesome.

Pelik-fied Drink.

2009-03-26T23:06:00.001+08:00

20th March.

I woke up at 8.

I don't remember the sun, but i do remember feeling oddly cold.

No, it's not a habit, it's a routine *grins*

One word, two alphabets. Ye. Whyy-eee.

*yawns*

i was late this time, sort of.

and i was wearing jeans and a t-shirt.

The shorts and shirt was apparently not good for school.

Pn.pramot says it's baaaad.

YE went on for like..3 hours.

You can see what we did, i'll post the link in the next post *smiles*

make sure you visit.

It's fun.. or atleast, i HOPE it's fun. LOL!

After YE, i rushed to my gramma's house.

mummy bought McD, and since i hate McD, and i didn't know what to eat,

i chose the filet-o-fish. I still think it tastes a little.. odd? LOL.

bathed, and then, my uncle came, talked to him for a bit.

Left home.. the bloody car aircond was spoiled, so it was soooo hot.

The sun was beating down, and the air was so humid and i could feel how dense it was.

Yet again, the heat was the last thing on my mind as i had my nose buried into my speech.

Reached the youth centre.. and i found teng shin, selven and sher rynn.. measuring the road or something.

AAK, was fun.

We elected the leader, i think. Yeah, we elected the leader.

Came up with a name for our group.

We were separated into two secret societies *grins* LOL!

After it ended, about 5, tara, aqie and i followed selven and sher rynn to aak.

Nyah, we sat there and talked for a bit.

I was showing my pet rock, chad to sher rynn, tara and aqieee.

Tara thinks it's cool i have a pet rock *hugs tara* :D

So anyway, tara went home a little after.

I was hungry, ditto with sher rynn, and the chocolate she fed me wasn't enough.

(my plan is to be as nice as possible to her, so i get more *evil grin*)

Kapitan's! :D

Teng shin, selven, aqie, rynn and i walked.

WALKED *grins*

I ordered this sweet and sour lassi, and it was sooo pelik-fied.

you should have seen teng shin's face when he drank it..

he winced and the smiled and pushed the drink away.

LOL! even selven thought it was weird, and the boy eats anything *shakes head*

my naan was good :D

teng shin didn't eat anything, he was sick-ish *frowns and pats his head*

sher rynn ate, haha! selven ate, too.

aqiee left before her drink even arrived, so i drank it, to compensate for the lack of liquid consumption. LOL!

On the way to following selven to the back, teng shin and sher rynn decided to go off first, the boy was feeling pretty sick.

So anyway, we walked and we reached the bank, and it's the bank my dad always goes to!

i didn't know it was soooo near aak. like, whatthehell.

Theeen, uhhm, aahh! walked back and teng shin's mum sent us home.

i feel a little.. malas to type.

so i'll end it here *smiles*

much love,

i still love doughnuts.

Cab ride smiles

2009-03-26T22:47:00.004+08:00

16th March.

Got up, in the morning, around..8-ish?

Sunrays were on my face, and i could see a tint of orange through my eyelids before i was even awake. Got off my bed, to find myself stepping on selven *grimaces*

Bathed, ate, and mummy came home, and took m

e to school.

On the way to school, i was reciting my speech, over and over. Grrr.

Went to school, hee, i was early.

Everyone was staring at me, and i was like.. wo-kayh. LOL.

Maybe it was the shorts, i don't know.. don't car

e XD

Went in my class, to find the choral speaking team having practise.

Stared at them for a bit, and then i got bored, so i was telling berberkins how i feel. LOL!

Went to go get the keys to open the bilik jahitan.. and while the meeting was going on, got a call from MayChee saying she took the wrong bus. And walking, was not an option, because it'll be too far. So Jaslyn and I, got her mum to fetch us to ge

t MayChee. LOL.

Went back to school, and started production. Wheeee.

I was playing songs, and annoyed lots of people :D

after Ye, the plan was ching wen was to follow me home.

But, burger wanted to come, so we went home to her house.

And i tried Honey Stars with mushroom soup..

no wait, that was a different day. SORRY.

We ate fried rice, and ice cream.
Oh, it was love. LOL.

Then we walked to McD.

Jaslyn, Jocelyn and MayChee were there.
We ate and walked back to school to wait for the bus..

and after waiting for what seemed like forever, we de

cided that maybe the bus left us :(

Jocel is insane, she was waving her hands.. and this bus dude came. And he was so pissed when we didn't want to get on it 0.o

Jocel caught a cab.. and six of us squeezed into this little cab.

Bloody hell it was like a sauna in there. LOL.

Jocel, jaslyn and may chee got off at queens..

and the uncle was grumbling because he said we pai

d too little or something =='

whatever la.

so he dropped us off, and we started walking to my house..

Ching wen thinks i'm insane for..

a) liking the sun.

b) liking to walk.

c) liking rapid.

d) hugging trees.

somebody tell her it's normal.

much love,

i love doughnuts and milo.

rain.

2009-03-26T22:44:00.002+08:00

on the 26th of february.

Vill played in the rain.

My sister took a video of it..

so yeah :)

very unclear, her phone, bad bad quality camera *grins*

it was fun.

made me happy.

had to tell the world.

LOL.

Library <3

2009-03-26T22:28:00.005+08:00

*smiles innocently*

on the 21st of February, which was a month ago, i know, i know.

We went to the library, Karin, Ber, Vonne and I.

Heee.

Exams were on the 2nd of March, we were trying to be hardworking or whatever.

Karin came to my house in the morning, and we went about 12.

Hmmm, studied for a bit.

Karin was teaching me Add Maths. Gaah.

Was a little frustrating, when even Karin couldn't complete this question,

i had this gut feeling i was doomed. DOOMED.

Vonne and Ber came, finally.

So we were all studying..

except berberkins looked all pissed and like she was going to punch somebody's daylights out.

Hey, just saying. LOL.

You see, we were studying so hard, and the air cond was so cold..

so you see, we were using lots of energy, so yeah, we could hear or tummies calling out to us.

Feed me.

Went downstairs.. looking for food.

We found maggi in a cup *grins* yumm.

Karin and vonne were asking me if i wanted curry, or chicken..
and i was saying chicken, over and over.

And they kept asking.. and i was like, can't they hear me? 0.o

so anyway.. they made the noodles for me..

I saw that they had chicken curry flavour.. and i whined, because i didn't get it.

And that's when karin and vivonne smacked their foreheads in unison..

apparently, that's why they were asking me over and over again.

LOL!

I made milo, but one packet seemed like too much for one cup.

So ber and i shared a cup..

but the milo ended up tasting like.. 'long kau chui'.

yeeeh, it was sad.

So vonne and i bought chocolate, broke it into little pieces and put it into the milo *grins*

it still tasted horrible.

*hides face* i'm horrible. LOL!

bought another packet of milo.. poured it into the cup.

OH, heaven in a cup, much?

I heart milo *grins like a loon*

YMCA Performance.

2009-02-19T14:32:00.010+08:00

on the 19th of February.

I woke up, with a start to find my surroundings pretty much, dark.

I reached my hand across my bedside table and fumbled around for my phone, and to my discontentment, it was 5 in the morning *yawns*
As i tried to go back to sleep, i was pretty much aware of my surroundings, and i kept tossing and turning, waiting for fall out boy's i don't care to fill the room. After what seemed like an eternity, my alarm finally rang, and i dragged myself out of bed. Hee. I didn't have to go to school today *grins*

I woke Selven ( my useless cousin brother ) up, to ask him what i need to wear. And he was being an asshole, grumpy much? Pfft. We left the house and we YMCA at about 7.25-ish and Kabeelan was already there. Then Hazmizal came, Sue Yi, Sue Ki... Heang Ye. Aqilah came like 5 seconds after, and i wanted to go say hello to the sun :D it was pretty. Diyana and Caitlin came a little afterwards, and we were doing warm up exercises and what not. We practised a few times, and then Aaron was teaching me how to be unstable. Note to self : Stop being stable. We changed into our costumes, and mine was.. big XD a little soon after, Teng Shin arrived, lol. We had breakfast. Those little heart-shaped doughnuts, egg, toast. Aqilah's breadwas gelifying *shows tongue* haha!

After breakfast, we were doing this.. meditating thing. And i had this uncanny urge to open my eyes, especially after Diyana said to keep it closed. heee.

Our performance was okay, i suppose. Apparently, Janet thought it was good *raises eyebrow* The whole time i was up on stage, i wasn't nervous.. i was too busy reminding myself to keep UNSTABLE. I was telling myself my legs were broken and now my life is over. Baah. I hope it worked :/ After the performance, i needed to pee, badly. Haha! Aqilah finally found out that public toilets and me aren't the bestest of matches. Hee. Afterwards, we went upstairs to change again. Aaron was singing to Fall For You *covers ears* haha! Lunch was okay, but we were talking to this dude, Andrew. He was really nice, and funny XD I was waving at the sun, saying hello. Made Aqilah, Selven and Teng Shin say hello, too :D after lunch, Diyana dropped Selven, Teng Shin and I at Komtar. Teng Shin went to work ( i don't know why he was so hellbent on going to work.. something about sitting still at home ==' )

Selven and I went into .. well, i don't know what, i think it was Prangin. Bought McD for Sueveena, and then went int Beads Zone. I bought an anklet! Oh, and i also bought those wood-y bracelets *grins at sue yi* i won't take your bracelet anymore, eheh. And then this lady was demonstrating this cream that will make all types of skin look better, and i was just staring at her blankly.. while she rubbed cream on my arm *yawns* Selven let her do it on his face! HIS FACE. I don't know why the boy doesn't feel geli of anything, ishh.

The moment we came out of Prangin, the bus came. Lucky eh? Hee. Got into the bus.. and after, well, godknows. We got down near the chinese school, near my house. So, while Selven was telling me about how whenever he gets off the bus near my house, the road is always silent and clear or him to walk.. a lightbulb lighted above my head. I asked him if he brought my housekey, and he asked me if i had it.. i burst out laughing. Why? *smiles* in a matter of moments, we were doing to reach my house.. but we weren't going to go in, because we're going to be locked outside, thankyouverymuch. Haha!

Selven climbed up the wall that was facing the mini garden, or just lots of plants, yes, the same wall Amber and I once used when we were locked outside, too. He opened the door, and tried to shake the key from behind the door. Of course, it worked. LOL. I climbed up the wall, got in, and.. well, you get the idea.

And here i am, blogging about it.

One more thing i'd like to type/say.. blah. I'm improving, as a blogger person. I mean, look, i'm actually posting things now *grins*

till next time,

and you know you'll come back *winks*

A Death Wish.

2009-02-17T19:46:00.002+08:00

yesterday, after tuition, while i was walking with my mum, talking to her, i almost got knocked down by a car. my mum pulled me aside just in time.. duh, or else i wouldn't be here.

just now, after school, i was looking at the sun and telling it i liked it, and guess what? yeah, a car was coming towards me, it was like the dude was blind or something. lin jia pulled me aside, while trying to balance her books and all that. it was funny, you should have seen her from my angle. haha! XD

baby hair.

2009-02-13T16:29:00.002+08:00

wednesday, after school, went to amber's house.
bathed, and all, then went to Mcd, to meet up with Chantri :)
Danny was there! haha! William, Muhanniz, Sara, Ephraim, and Chung Min.
Chew came a little later la. I saw Farahin, and her.. 'friend' *grins*
haha!
Daniel is soo bloody tall, now. And ephraim makes me feel small, literally. Like everybody is just growing tall, and thin. Like beansprouts.. or sticks. STICKPEOPLE. Pfft. I feel like a kid around Daniel. I was trying to do Add Maths, heee. Danny has horrible handwriting. William was so serious with his Biology homework. Apparently he has a certain period of time where he can laugh *grins*
sara lost her phone.
I'm sorry for her.

Anyway, after McD.
Amber and I went home, and we were laughing like we were drunk people XD
We brought Nikki to the vet.
And the vet had a daughter, and a son. The daughter was soooo cute, and she looked a little like me when i was young. Awhh, i liked her :p
The son was very funny, he was playing and playing, and doing all this crazy things. haha!
Get well soon, nikki boy.
He's the only dog that doesn't bark at me :(
hahahahah! XD

Potluck.

2009-02-13T16:05:00.003+08:00

on the 1st of February, finally *yawns*
We had this Rc potluck thingy.
I went to ber's house in the morning, and i found Vivonne sitting at the kitchen table, doing her homework, and bedazzling everything. She looked deranged, hahahahahha! XD seriously, sticking small pieces of stones on everything, so i started laughing at her. She thinks i'm weird *frowns*

We ordered Pizza, and when we arrived, we found that the whole hall looked like a scene out of a horror movie. It was gloomy, dark, people were scarce.. and to themselves. horror movie much? hahaha! All we had to do was to wait, for a crazy psycho killer to jump in on the fun *shrugs*

Mikey came. No no, he's not the crazy psycho killer.. he's just crazy. He was taller than me, boohoo. It was so not fair, but i couldn't do anything. booohoo. I got a little bored, so i sms-ed mark after a bit.

And we were eating, and talking, and eating.. and talked more.

Bahh, i wanted to go home. So you can guess how relieved i was, when it did end.

While we were waiting for my mummy to come, we were outside listening to songs. Then the ice cream man came *jengjengjengjeng*, i wanted to get icecream, so i made amber follow me.. and she did, and i got almost hit by a motorcycle man, again. And now i owe her another kidney, at this rate, i'll be organless by May =='

My mum fetched me, and we decided to go help Selven and the Aak people, at the chinese new year celebration at Armenian Street. We walked a bit, after we came out of the car, Amber and I. Vivonne followed my mum, to go to her country club to play tennis. Heee.Selven came like 10 minutes later, much to our dislike. haha! He was right, there were LOTS of people. Sher Rynn was there :) Teng Shin, Liyana... *smiles* haha! XDI was trying to sell calendars, but nobody bought them from mee :( Sher rynn and i went around trying to sell them, it didn't really work XD hahahahhha! So, anyway, i went home, at about 8.30 or so.

Mum cooked fried rice.. and then amber had to go home. Baah, i bathed and went to sleep.. I was so tired, and i had school the next day. Holidays were over. Bleeh. Sorrow. haha!

Sher Rynn.

Their gay.

New Moon.

2009-02-13T15:58:00.003+08:00

On the 30th of January.
I went to queens with burger and Karin. nyaaaha.
I wanted to buy New Moon so badly. BADLY.
Went there, and i saw this dude.. i thought it was Ephraim, and so i waved at him.
He looked at me, puzzled at first.. he hesitated, and the he started waving back. And so i sms-ed Ephraim, and he was like.. who? hahahahahhahaha! i waved at a stranger dude *shrugs* XD
Went to Borders, and they were out of New Moon, and i was so sad. Karin wasn't helping at all =='

So we went to Popular because i was insisting on it, nyaaha! They had New Moon! *grins*
I was soooooo bloody happy. BLOODY HAPPY.
Went to buy tickets.. and there was this horribly LONG LONG line. Lee Ting helped us cut the line *smilesss* She was there with shin yee, and michelle, and pei ying came a little later on. We watched Inkheart. It was boring, and i was bored.. so i threw popcorn at ber and leeting :D
Karin was beside me, grumbling, too. nyaah, my partner in crimee. hee.

After the movie, we went to Secret Recipe to eat.
I was feeling a little queasy for some weird reason.
So we ate.. and Karin talked about her feelings while Amber and I talked about punching people. hahaha! XD
I felt like a skirt wearing gangster :D
haha! Amber wanted to go shoe shopping, and so we did. She bought this pretty pretty shoe from Nose. It's got a very Indie feel to it, pretty :)

We saw Mikey, and i was boasting about the fact that i was the same height as him, in heels. Which of course made me very very happy. ahhh, new moon then.. mikey is short. God loves Me *grins*

HamburgarDay.

2009-02-13T15:48:00.006+08:00

on the 28th of January.

Amber came over. wheee~

i was feeling a little down, so burger came over.

She came in the morning, and we decided to watch TV for a bit.

Then for lunch, we walked to the Mini Mart near my house, and decided to get some food.

While i was walking, i was sms-ing, and i told cherylene something, and she guessed i was wearing shorts.. so i told Amber, in the Mini Mart. You'd never guess what Amber did next..

she crouched down a little, looked around with a bewildered expression, and did the most stupid-est thing ever. She went like, ' cherylene, are you there? cherylene' in a very low whisper.

i started laughing like crazy, and the lady at the counter was staring.. and the other customers were looking. All amber's fault. People think i'm a loon or something. Pfffft.

So we got chocolates, sweets, i got Malta. And then we saw this cute dude at the counter, ahhhh! He was hot :(

Boohoo. We went to get some lunch, and we were talking. On the way home, i was walking.. and i almost got hit by a motorcycle, LOL. Amber saved my life. I now owe her a kidney or something *rolls eyes*

We went to the Gym :D then we played in the pool, and i took a gorgeous picture of the Sun *sighs*

2009-02-13T15:48:00.001+08:00

on the 25th of January, i fell in love with Twilight.

fish spaaa. wheee.

2009-02-13T15:40:00.002+08:00

on the 24th of January.
We went out to queens.
We as in Selven, Teng Shin, Sher Rynn, Liyana, Davina and I.
Selven and I took rapid there. heeee. LOL!
Teng Shin and Sher Rynn arrived a little while later.
Went to eat at Manhattan Fish Market. Hee.
Then afterwards, we went to the Fish Spa, and it was sooo fun. Liyana was so tickleish, and we were making much too much noise. Since it's suppose to be a relaxing place, and what not. I'm soo into promoting this place. haha! XD i should get paid or something, pfft.

Before we went to go watch the movie, Bride Wars.
We went to Borders, and i saw Ephraim *grins*
I bought Twilight.
Yes, on the 24th of January, i bought Twilight.
*sighs with contentment*
Bride Wars was bloody awesome. I was crying, and Liyana started crying.. and Sher Rynn laughed at me *frowns* haha! XD

everything from a to z

Maroon 5 - Never Gonna Leave This Bed

the apple to my pie

Plain White T's - Rhythm Of Love

dome.

decisions, decisions, decisions

ho's over bro's?

hats

a box of sweets.

soul vacation.

words of a whisper.

smarties.

suffocated.

yo, homeey :D

baby carrots.

the best chocolate, ever.

all i need.

dates.

things to do in a library.

cocoon.

raspberry chocolates.

leather cords.

cannonball!

thisposthasnotitle,yo.

oops, i did it again.

happy new year?

sunlight through my window.

candycanes.

dhiv likes candy.

closure.

untitled.

just haven't met you yet.

of shirts and nail polish.

fried rice and pepsi.

the ugly truth.

of rain and thunder.

*grins*

my favourite colour is red.

the voice of an angel.

when i'm gone.

i drink blue water.

my cucumber buddy.

tigger.

i had pizza for dinner

i am mentally ill.

i had mushroom soup for breakfast.

my oats has fruits in it.

my hair shampoo smells like fruit.

my body gel is blue.

grilled sandwhiches, baybeeeh.

candy.

teh tarik xD

you're my wonderwall.

danny's hilarious joke. haar.

success.

earl grey tea <3

dannykins.

yo gabba gabba.

my red ball.

ching wen the babi. nyaaah.

chicken.

tomatoes.

a lame joke.

raindrops

i'm cool.

exams.

Karinieeee.

Red Flag.

if looks could kill.

Pelik-fied Drink.

Cab ride *smiles*

rain.

Library <3

YMCA Performance.

A Death Wish.

baby hair.

Potluck.

New Moon.

HamburgarDay.

fish spaaa. wheee.

grins

Cab ride smiles